Man skjiet visi conspiracy dudes ir tik potenciaali biistami (kaa dulni sirsenji), jo vinju domaashana ir kaa pranoiskiem shizofreenikjiem. Vinjus sen vairs neinteresee realitaati, un vinji ir tik eksistenciali apseesi ar savu fantaaziju, kas vinjus piespiezh kaa vergus, kaa kordiceps zombijskudras.

Pats skaudraakais pasaulee (aiz visaam visskaudraakajaam lietaam, protams) ir redzeet, ka cilveeks ir tukshs.. pazaudeejis apzinjas un skaidriibas kritisko gaismu.

Lau kaa Iilons kaistu un ilgotos peec androiidiem, es izteelojos ka aptuveni taada buus komunikaacija ar vinjiem. Them solely relying on extensive database of semantics and manerisms, yet remaining utterly spiritually hollow and unrelatable.

Ciba bija vieta, kur rakstiit par savu sadirsto un velto dziivi. Tagad visi tikai dirsh uz visiem citiem and then some. Juus nekad nenokljuusiet pie nirvaanas un Jeezus nekad juus miilji neskaus (bet gan teiks, lai juu atkaapjaties un beidzat raustiit vinja kleitu, jo vinjam ar jums nav nekaada dariishana, blje), ja juus nesaaksiet pashi savu sadirsumu vaakjiit. Ja jums kaut kas pasaulee nepatiik, tad juus pashi esat sadirsti, un jums vajag dzilju refleksiju, Jungu, krishjaani, gariigumu un beigt dzert alkoholu un piipeet smirdiigaas cigaretes. Ja juus dirshat par citiem juus esat vaaji, ja juus dirshat par sevi - tad juus beidzot esat iisti cilveeki, kaa skaistaa dziesmaa.

I should really stop eating stuff from the floor..

Vnk it is either that, vai arii man speciaali ir jaasmeeree rokas, lai visas kripatas, picinjas un gabalinjus uzlasiitu un speciaali ietu uz virtuvi izmest. Vai sliktaakajaa gadiijumaa, sasuukt ar daisonu un vinju sakjepinaat un sasmirdinaat.

Basically, it is not your kid that predominantly eats floor food, but alas it is you, I mean me, perhaps it is only me..

"The notion is that spiritual battle between good and evil is something that should be conducted on an individual basis and within. So that if you want to constrain evil you don't search for it in the external world, because that can make you a persecutor and an accuser. You attempt to bind its manifestation in the confines of your own life, and that's partly what takes it out of the political realm.
And so, if you don't do that and it collapses into the political, then you start looking for demonic enemies everywhere to account for malevolence. And the problem with that is, that it turns you into a sensorial self righteous persecutor."

Sātans jūs kārdina, un jūs arvien iekrītat viņa klēpī.

Sometimes i feel like i am turning into Blippi.

When you're sad just listen to Cake.

"These are shameful times for Britain, for America and for the West, a point of no return from our accelerating descent into nihilism and depravity. The hate-fest on our streets since Hamas’s genocidal attacks on Israel, the cowardly appeasement of those who loathe democratic values, the victim-blaming, the scapegoating, and most terrifyingly of all, the open, proud, out-of-the-closet anti-Semitism: it is almost too much to bear.

Of all the sickening developments of recent days, the ugliest was the sight of heartless young people, caught on video, tearing down posters highlighting the plight of kidnapped Israeli children, laughing as they did so, in London’s Leicester Square and across the country. Do these vandals think that the kidnappings were justified, or do they want to deny their very existence, better to wallow in self-righteous loathing?

In north London, a Hitler moustache was painted on posters, this time of three-year-old twin girls abducted by Islamist extremist monsters. Hamas, a group explicitly inspired by Hitler’s ideology, kills Israelis, and yet it is Jews who are accused of being the real Nazis: nothing better captures the moral inversion of our times. Jews are always to blame, however much they are persecuted. These outrages follow the chilling story of the Tube driver who, carried away by the social contagion of our febrile times, thought it was perfectly normal to lead a carriage of protesters in an anti-Israel chant.

Nature abhors a vacuum, and we are paying the price for the growing moral emptiness at the heart of our society."

Dazhreiz man patiik uzlikt Bittersweet Symphony un iet cauri puulim taa it kaa es buutu vecs Karls Jungs kosmosaa.

HOW can you possibly allow a Hamas demonstration in central London? Why doesn't somebody organize pro Putin invasion demonstration as well since we'real at it?

I think that just proves that police is impotent limp bizkits, and if something like Hamas/Isis would start to attack groups of people in UK they would just do nothing and utter something like..we have to be tolerant to all groups of human expression because of one love 🌈

Human desperate idiocracy HURTS my mind..

Why do people keep saying things like "oh well we don't know enough about Israel situation to say more, but we are sorry for the people.."

What the heck do you mean!? What else is there to know that only group of demonic people attacked another peaceful group, thus there is only one bad guy here!

When you say you don't know enough, you're implying that there might be a case where murder and rape is approved by God!?

Pirmaas rudens iesnas muusmaajaas. S atveseljojaas 1 dienaa. Man simptomi urkjeejas jau vairaakas dienas, bet tik shonakt sajutos taa pa iistam nelaagi. R arii vakar vakaraa saakaas kakls un deguns. Skatiisimies cik ilgi mees abi tagad shljurkaasimies.

Lai arii rudentinjsh ir skaistaaks par vasaru, vismaz vasaraa koronas liek mieraa.

I want nothing more in life than just to have a lovely, tidy and warm, sweet home with matching objects and clean surfaces, with concise feng-shui and some seasonal candles. Jo tad visiem cilvēkiem, kas dzīvo šajā mājā būs labs prāts un darbi vedīsies un ritēs un, par spīti kali jugai, pasaulē viss veiksies un būs labi. I must work relentlessly to achieve this, I will fight forever to have a nice home for everyone. Laundry and crumbs will not submit me, I won't back down!

I cannot believe there are finally some good news! Šorīt lasīju tube, ka Rišijs ir sarosījies iesaistīties cīņā pret woke sunpurņiem. Iestāties par ģimeni, common sense 2 sexes 2 genders, aizliegt mužikiem iebāzties sungle-sex spaces un pārtraukt grūtnieces saukt par grūtiem cilvēkiem (this one stung so much when visitning hopsital's maternity website I saw they now refer to women as preganat people..), so they will recall woke language and woke agenda in NHS and other public sectors. I cannot believe and makes me so happy, it is as if Gandalf is returning!

"The Prime Minister has sometimes seemed reluctant to get stuck into “culture war” issues, but he shook off those inhibitions for what was the punchiest part of his address.

Mr Sunak fired up the audience when he insisted that voters must not be “bullied into believing that people can be any sex they want to be”.

His remarks on gender drew the loudest applause of the afternoon and followed an announcement that trans women will be banned from female-only hospital wards.

He said: “We shouldn’t get bullied into believing that people can be any sex they want to be. They can’t – a man is a man and a woman is a woman. That’s just common sense.

“It shouldn’t be controversial for parents to know what their children are being taught in school about relationships. Patients should know when hospitals are talking about men or women.”

Mr Sunak also spoke about the importance of family, saying that Conservatives should “never be afraid” to champion its importance to a stable society."

I am always so devastated to see how such goodness and such malevolence coexist in life and world. Dažreiz es vakaros domāju par visām tām šausmīgajām lietam, ko degradēti daily mail cilvēki dara visādos pagrabos un nolaistās telpās visur Londonā un pasaulē. Un tad atnāk it kā svētā dienas Dieva gaisma, bet tikuntā ļaunums lavās un slapstās renstelēs un nostūros un gaida un medī un ņirgājas.

Oh well, if anything, tas sapurina un atgādina arvien spējāk, cik svarīgi ir pieslieties Dievam un labajam un gaišajam - dabai un svētībai. Neatļaut ļaunām domām un ieradumiem ar sevi izdarīties kā tam Pītersona neķītrajam kaķim. Neieaicināt dēmonus un vieplīgo tumsu.

I sometimes wish that I could just escape to a lovely, humane and honest fantasy paradise like Virgin River, where people are diligent, conscientious, wise, respectful, hard working in life and with themselves, and follow nature and God and stick to each other. Yet I am stuck in an unstable world, where you never know if/what evil will jump at you, peoples minds are scattered, fried, frenzied and lost. I can only pray God to give me same strength as to Jesus to confront and endure malevolence, jo basically it is not as real as God, bet vairāk tāda kā slikta ilūziju cilpa nosvērtā un perfektā laiktelpā.

I literally wish to cry whenever I get to speak to a person that is sane and good and a real human being.

You could be so happy, then it suddenly turns
No one can explain it and you don't have the words
I can see you're trying, I can see that it hurts
I can see you're trying, I can see that it hurts
Just take a breath, love
Fill your lungs up
Rest your head
There's no sense in losing sleep
You can break down
Let your worst out
Lose your temper
But you're not losing me
Like a bed that you could fall in when you're broken
I'm the air that's running through our window open

"There’s good news for anyone lying on a stretcher waiting for admission to A&E, who has been held in a queue for a hip operation or is pulling their hair out simply trying to book a GP appointment for a worrying pain down their left side. There may be no doctor to see you, but you may get to see a diversity officer instead. NHS England is proposing to set up three new departments, involving an extra 244 new posts. There will be an “Equality, Diversity and Inclusion” department, one called “People and Culture” and another called “People and Communities”.

In other words, the NHS may often disappoint its patients, but at least in future they should all be equally disappointed, with all 57 ethnic varieties and 100 or so different genders ending up waiting just as long for treatment as each other."

Man no rudens gribas raudāt. Es zinu, ka rudens vēl ir agrs un novītusī vasara vēl guļ savā blāvo, kritušo puķu zārkā visiem redzot. Bet Rudens ar savu svaigo, smaržīgo dvašu nopūšas un atvieglo manu sirdi jau. Rīti satumst un daba noriet, un iestājas pārpasaulīgais miers, kāds ir tikai garās gada dienas beigās, kad visam, kam bija celties un dzimt un rasties un augt un zaļot, tadgad ir laiks parādīt savus augļus un priecāties par esības piepildījumu un atvieglojumu, kas tajā rodas.

My default "sorry for being fallen but I am trying my current best" mode: Frodo mazais frowny smaidinjsh

Gone are the days of virtue and honour. We'll find comfort when kingdom comes.

"Some kids know they want to chain-smoke as young as 2-3 years old. Early signs include pretending to puff on a crayon, holding a pencil between their middle and index fingers, strong cravings for candy "cigarettes," and rapidly making "huffing" sounds or deeply exhaling.

Be an inclusive adult. Tell them about people who smoke.

Educate them on the long and diverse history of tobacco use and smoking, from Native Americans' sacred rituals to European sailors and beyond.

Show them pictures of iconic smokers from diverse backgrounds and the vintage ads that made smoking look cool. Ensure they recognize they're part of a long and chic tradition."

If you want to be happy just stop thinking about how you feel.

Embodiment is uncomfortable but magical.

Biju aizmirsusi, cik pirmais trimestris ir EXHAUSTING. Vai arī pirmā bērniņa eiforijā to nepamanīju, plus back in 2021. it definitely helped, ka bija vēl lokdauns un nebija jāstrādā. Varēju tik bumbulēties, skatīties What to Expect when Expecting, un malkojot suliņu pētīt the magical jewelous wonders of female pregnancy and hypnobirthing.

Tagad man ir jāķersta bubix, plus man teju visu laiku ir slikti, ārpus kontroles un robežu bloating, ja nepaēdu reibst galva, bet ēst negribas dēļ sliktās dūšas, un es visu iespējamo laiku jūtos tā it kā būtu tūlītiņās jāiet gulēt, un tas viss is making me mildly grumpy, ja vien tie nav izslavētie hormoni, kurus pirmoreiz kaut kā pašai vismaz šķiet ka nepiedzīvoju. Protams, katra grūtniecība ir citādāka, bet es ļoti gaidu otro trimestri, kad jutīšos kā maģiskais spēka virpulis..cik atceros!

Honestly, kā cilvēki nesaprot, ka gender affirming care, it sevišķi operācijas ir actual butchery. There is no practical difference (only GAC gadījumā probably worse on human level, as it is done with reproductive parts, and to undeveloped humans without full mental faculty to consent), when someone comes to a doctor and says, they will feel better if their perfectly healthy legs or arms, or maybe head! if we are at it, would be cut off, because they just feel like they were born with these wrong limbs / body parts and it is making them depressed. A doctor's reaction simply cannot be - lets cut them off to make you feel better, shall we?

There is, there cannot, there never will be an excuse in cutting off healthy body parts. Esspecially, because you simply cannot change someone's sex, unless you alter their DNA, which we cannot do currently. A man without penis is still a man, and a woman without breasts is still a woman, only they are now mutilated and wretched. That is total opposite of self acceptance - it is not accepting your human reality, and choosing to live a life of lies, and wishing it unto children. I simply cannot comprehend the level of delusion and muddledness for people to not realize this and go along with this.

I loathe with fervour parents and doctors who put this demonic sin onto their innocent and gentle children.

This cult has really brought out the unprecedented, tragic mental lack of humanity in humans, disability of spirit. You could say - simple stupidity, but it is much more devastating and darker than that. I guess assuming stupidity is always easier than assuming evil, as we cannot fully comprehend evil if we are not possessed by it ourselves.

Fuck..

Also, I am so excited about JP fight with Canadian psihologu disciplinary. Man ir pat tāda sajūta, ka šis ir tikai kārtējais likumsakarīgais posms viņa dzīvē, kā patiesības nesējam. Of course you get in trouble by speaking the truth, it cannot be any other way. Savāds Jēzus arhetips jā, cerams tikai ka sans krusifikācija. This will be the most exciting battle of free speech to enfold, and oh, I hope he is victorious. Truth must prevail, reality must prevail.

Honestly, noskatīties kā Notinghilas karnevālā kaut kāda pusplika bočka rīvējas un tresī pret policista bikšupriekšu, kamēr viņš tur stāv kā impotents stabs, un kā vēlviens 'svinētājs' vēl citam policistam šauj pakausī ar ūdenspistoli, kamēr policists atkal stāv kā impotents stabs.. un tikmēr kaut kur citur distopijā tikko notiesāts pedofīls izdomājis, ka ir sieviete, uzvilcis rozā kreklu, šortiņus un uzlicis matu stīpiņu, un tagad mēs visi kolektīvi rociņās sadevušies, tur tiesnesis, policija, mēdiji viņu uzrunājam 'cienījamā dāma', lai neaizvainotu viņa trauslo dvēselīti. Reāli gribas kaukt kā deranged vilcenei. Frankly Mr. Shankly this shit is utterly fucked.

Ok, jūs varat nicināt JP cik vēlaties, brīžos kad viņš ieklemmējas un sprauslā indi pret malignant narcisistiem, kā pats būtu apsēsts. But he is irrevocably and concisely right in every desperate word he says.

Truly, kad lasu ziņas no pasaules, bet jo īpaši sāpīgi no UK, I can't help but think.. fuck, is this really happening to the dear old world I used to know? Lietas, kas bija tik acīmredzami pavisam nepieminami pašsaprotami sliktas vai labas, tagad ir kļuvušas tik garīgi slimi ačgārnas. And you sort of go along with it or smirk at it or just try not to look at it, because you have to be able to survive and live your life and care for your family. But if you just live your life and care for your family, things just get worse and more sinister! Are you then yourself sinister? Are you actually not caring for your family at all by quietly going along with sinister things!?

I hate these days, I hate the modern world that poops on everything that is beautiful and true and gracious.

"Who could fail to weep at such pain so deliberately inflicted? At the sly cruelties minutely calibrated so as to escape detection? At the way these babies – tiny, dearly-loved scraps of life – fought so fiercely to survive but stood no chance against the truly wicked depredations of the neonatal nurse entrusted with their care?

And as for the rest of us, we are forever changed. How could we not be?

On Monday, I sat and witnessed those mothers speaking, those fathers struggling to articulate their grief. And as they shed tears, I wept too, just as every parent, every decent person in this land must surely have wept as the full extent of Letby’s icy malevolence was laid bare.

Her sole motive – so deeply pathetic and all the more appalling for that – appears to have been the pursuit of attention. From her colleagues, from a consultant she had a crush on, from the parents clamouring for hope – unknowingly submitting to the hugs and comfort of the woman who had literally just murdered their babies.

*

It is said when a parent dies, you lose your past – but when a child dies, you lose your future. The courage of these bereaved parents, sharing their deepest anguish with such dignity, is surely proof that evil will not prevail."

I feel like nowadays problem is that in order not to offend insane people they are willing to sacrifice good people. It is like a warped, psychotic form of empathy, which really should not be called that. It is like empathy is used to hijack someones mind.

Or perhaps it is also just a big portion of indifference and ignorance.

Cilveeki ir achgaarni un truli un ljauni arii, karoche.

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-66104004

Turpinu šokēties par baby killer medmāsu, ko šonedēļ UK notiesāja. Viņa strādāja jaundzimušo intensīvās aprūpes nodaļā, un bez rezervācijām vismaz pāri divdesmit (no kuriem vismaz 7 nomira) jaundzimušajiem sašpricēja vēnās gaisu vai insulīnu vai ūdeni vai pienu, pāris dienas un nedēļas veciem zīdaiņiem.

Šķiet šokējoši vienojošais visādiem sērijveida slepkavām, par ko esmu dzirdējusi, vai vispār psihopātiskām slepkavām (as opposed to crimes of passion) ir tas, ka šie upuri viņu dzīvē ir teju pats nesvarīgākais - kā kaut kads stabs ko jāpabīda malā. Viņi upurus uztver kā kaut kādu nesvarīgu bezmazvai inanimate object type means to an end. And in their world and in their story other things are much more important. Killing is like this side thing they do, like a tedious compulsion that you jsut accept as a personal quirk, not paying much attention to what it means or how it affects other humans, or victims themselves. Victims are totally irrelevant. As their main occupying thought is their personality and their emotional experiences. Piemēram, tas ka LL pilnībā neizrādīja emocijas, kad tika apspriesti viņas upuri un viņu vecāki, bet kad runa gāja par viņas pašnāvības mēģinājumu, vai kad liecināja ārsts kurā viņa bija ieķērusies, tikai tad viņa izrādījā jebkādas emocijas. Un tas, ka viņa dažus bērnus nogalināja, lai pievērstu šī ārsta uzmanību.

Basically, some humans don't see humans as humans, or they do not experience any emotion when it comes to human life and what it is worth or what it means. They simply cannot differentiate between a human life/soul and some.. well - thing.

It is really striking, and it leaves you wondering whether it is a mental defiiciency of few or a scary feature of all humans. Given that many humans end up doing cold-hearted things being utterly blind to how it affects others.

I just do not know how to mentally deal with such darkness.

Bask in the glory of.

Who else could be hell bent in creating a chasm between someone's body and soul but the great divider?

From God arises only wholeness and unity.

Pasta pasta pasta everywhere.

"The problem, however, is that atheism can only take something away; once the old faith is gone, it offers nothing to fill the void. Yet some atheists acknowledge that human beings consistently demonstrate a need to believe in something beyond themselves, conceding that this might serve an evolutionary purpose. Whatever the cause of our curious instinct to put our hands together for gods, dictators or Gary Lineker, we can now see that a generation that doesn’t look outwards, towards God, looks inwards, to itself. The defining spirit of our time is self-obsession; neurosis, self-actualisation, the triumph of mind over matter. What I want, I must have. What I wish to be, I can become."

Omg, go Trump! Dat speech.. I only wish Rishi had the same guts to put a strict end to gender affirming abuse.

Vasara ir vēla un viegla.

Pie mums ir atbraukusi R mamma un brāļa meita, kas dzīvi ir atvieglojis līdz raudienam - beidzot var uzelpot un priecāties. S tagad būs ilgas brīvdienas no dārziņa un nemitīga bumbulēšanās ar radiem un draugiem. Cik labi, ka tagad katrā istabā ir pa cilvēkam un smaidam pie kura var aiziet. Tagad man atkal ir resnās budas sajūta, kur gratefulness briest pāri malām un piepilda visu laiktelpu, when all effort is effortless celebration of life. Paldies tev mīļo Dieviņ atkal.

Tagad, kad man ir tik labs un piepildīts bet atvieglot prāts, es varu aizlūgt par visu cilvēci un paslepšus isdarīt tā, lai vismaz viens esības stūrītis ir mazs sidraba zobratiņš, kas iegriež pasauli labākās sliedēs.

S mīļākie televīzijas raidījumi:

1) Cuquin
2) Arpo
3) Gecko's Garage
4) Bing
5) El Estepario Siberiano

Honesti, kādiem loxiem jābūtu, lai iebilstu pret ULEZ un future petrol car bans? At least in cities like London? How does it not make sense to fuck fumes that poison gentle children and already wretched adults? Neviens negrib elpot jūsu mašīnu pirdekļus. Just produce only electric cars and get over it loxi.

All of us will really regret being negative downers.

Life is such a loving gift.

Houston, we have a problem..

S ir apguvis jaunu vārdiņu 'puķe', only viņš to izrunā kā 'puta' :')

Pirmo reizi manaa darbaa kaadu atlaida deelj misogynistic jokiem.. wokism is real! It's not just social media, it exists in actual reality! Whoa, papinj!

Dazhreiz, kad esmu izsuukusi paklaaju, un tad peec kaada laika pamanu ka S ir izkaisiijis savas drupachinjas..ja tas ir kaut kas garshiigs like cepuminjsh, tad es vinjas vienkaarshi uzlasu un apeedu.

Ok.. Cyberbob has a newsflash jaals. Man jau LIKĀS, ka Temu sievietes balss izklausās pēc kaut kādām sātana grūpiju mēlēm (nothing personal lady who recorded it), vai vismaz dziesmas lirikas. Un tagad viss ir skaidrs - Temu ir ķīniešu spyware to submit us all into the abyss of new age communism. God, they really think people are dumb, and God, people really are dumb. Oh well, iešu atpakaļ uz virtuvi vārīt sautējumu, papiņ.

Klausiities JP un Duglasaa just makes me want to cry as a littlest bech.. this amount of pristine crystal logos is just pure God's grace. :')

'The point of truth is not a game, it is to get you somewhere.'

Oh jubly, on Woman's Hour ir vesela sekcija par narcissistic mothers triggering all sorts of sweet memories..

'“There was a horrific, horrific phone call,” says Louise. “My husband could tell that I was getting agitated so he put it on loudspeaker so he could listen in. She just started questioning why I was with him, saying I'd rushed into having a family, I wasn't doing the right thing. My husband could hear all of this. He just ended up picking up the handset and giving a ‘What for?’ down the phone, then slamming the phone down.

“He just said, ‘That’s not what a mother does. That’s not what a caring mother, new grandmother does.’ He called her out on it, and they did have a difficult relationship as a result because every time she's called out or was called out, it never went well. She couldn’t take it on board, she couldn’t reflect. It was us being vicious and nasty and manipulative.'

Līdz šim es domāju ka psihopāti ir utimate villains, bet tagad man šķiet ka varbūt tie drīzāk ir narcisisti. Jo lai arī psihopāti var būt narcissisti, oftentimes they don't give a damn what others think of them so they just calmly carry on, kamēr narcissisti is what it is.

So far it is looking severely warped:

- A narcissist is someone who has an unreasonably high sense of self-importance and seeks attention and admiration, while often ignoring the feelings of others.
- ‘From what I've learned about narcissists, they try to separate their herd, their children, away from other people. And they'll say everything negative about everyone else, because they want to keep them close. They want to keep them on their team, on their side, like it's a war.
- They would bad-mouth others and destroy people verbally.
- Harsh outbursts, afer which they would resume life as normal, as if nothing happened.
- When called out they would not let it go but seek revenge either verbal or in real life actions, to specifically make their victim suffer the consequences of their hurt ego.
- Extremely volatile, and EVERYTHING is someone else's fault - narcissist can do nothing wrong. Particularly this affects young children whose parents are narcissists.
- Silent treatment, inability to communicate in an authentic, reciprocal way, inability to reflect, zero empathy.

Honestly, what makes such human beings? It is like a sticky satan mode that cilngs to it's benevolent victims, until they are reduced and degraded in a similar way, like some sort of terrible nature's display of emotional parasitism.

"Michael Doherty, 50, from Suffolk, was shocked by what he saw when teachers at Thurston Primary School finally allowed him to see teaching materials intended for his nine-year-old daughter - after weeks of not allowing him access. It follows MailOnline revealing a wealth of questionable and sometimes graphic teaching material made for controversial Relationships and Sex Education (RSE) classes, which became compulsory three years ago. Secretive lesson plans showed schoolchildren are being taught about anal sex and orgasms before they have reached puberty and set 'masturbation' as homework."

Like, wtf world, why are you so gross and horrific! Malignant, gross, rotten rotten rotten, sin-riddled, revolting narcissists. How to protect children from this overwhelmingly degraded world? It simply must not all be so hope- and power-less. I so wish there was something good people could do to make a real difference. I wish I knew what I could do.

A lot of negative emotions are narcissistic as they refuse God's authority of good intent and grace. They give preference in belief in human authority of malignancy. Which is naturally a delusion. Bad faith and narcissistic to believe humans have more power than God.

Alternative/opposite to resentment is gratitude.

"Debanking is an insidious practice, because people have no option nowadays but to have an account, with cash no longer accepted in many quarters. That makes it an essential utility similar to the provision of water which cannot just be removed on the whim of some internal inquisition."