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nata13) rakstīja,
@ 2009-07-10 19:08:00

Lai upe pati mani nes nostrādāja, un ir tik jauki,ka atkal viss ir back to normal.

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nata13
2009-07-12 01:40 (saite)

Oh, she reads my diary, surprise, surprise.

But yeah, it wasn't easy for me, 'cause I'm used to fight back, fighting was all I knew, and this let the river take me, hurts worse than fighting sometimes. Hurts me, not others. When I'm fighting it hurts others too, so I don't know which way is fair. You are at river,but you can't take pain away.
There is so much pain inside you at that moment, that you think you will blow up.
And always there is no one who would ask, if I need help, if I need someone to talk to about things that pains me.
I was so upset last days, fighting with myself, telling myself that yeah I don't really care, but it wasn't true and when I realized that everything is fine again then and only then I cried.

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	nata13 2009-07-12 01:46 (saite)
	I guess everyone thinks that I'm some kind of metal lady and that I never feel bad, that nothing can hurt me. It is so fucking not true. I'm only hinging myself sometimes under mask of being strong, cool about everything. (Atbildēt uz šo) (Iepriekšējais)

	josephine16 2009-07-12 22:41 (saite)
	Sorry for my not being there for you when you need help.. I'm not much in shape myself, but that's just because of an infinite inside struggle. (Atbildēt uz šo) (Iepriekšējais)

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