I've never felt worse physically. I feel like a very old, fragile person. Where any prospect of stairs or longer distances or even leaving house is daunting and a huge exertion.

It is really demoralising for me not be able to be my usual active self, to clean and cook for my family and to be a good worker at my job.

I really fear labour and if I will be even more broken afterward.

I know I just need a healthier perspective, but it is challenging to maintain when you've felt injury for a long while.

I hope spring comes soon and lifts my spirits.