Garastāvoklis:

scared

i am now in moscow. arrived just a few hours ago. although i planned to be back on 27th, the bus arrived around 23, and i so much wanted to take a shower, and i also had left lots of stuff i would need at home, so had to go home and missed the last night train.
i decided to take advantage of the situation and went to the doctor to get my eyes checked and buy contact lenses from her. well, actually i just need one, cause my right eye sees perfectly or almost perfectly and my left eye is -2.5 and when i am tired i can't see many things
so i went to her, she put a lense into my eye and asked me to check how many lines i can see from the table with letters. i started feeling dizzy and told her i was not feeling comfortable with that thing in my eye. she told me it's okay and i should feel better in a few secondes, but i felt only worse so i asked her to take it off. she did and than apparently i fainted. because i don't remember how she took it off, but when i came round i had no lens in my eye and there was another woman and they were calling someone to help.
she refused to put a lens into my eye again, and i didn't feel like trying again either. i thought it was because of the lens, but today i woke up on the train and felt dizzy again and nearly fainted again.
i think i am so exhausted because of EYP and Mayors Meeting in Moscow event where i hardly slept at all. this is quite disturbing.