if I may guess, dear, I think these are not the right obligations (not the most important ones). this text of yours is absolutely brilliant, soooooooo good that i am almost tempted to print it out in the specified format (10 by 10 cms), shred it and eat it up - slowly, gradually, mixing with all the chewing gums and pills I have to take to become a fully-fledged member of society again.......