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quote number one:
[about a suicide]
'And why is it the biggest sin of all? All your life you're told that you'll be going to this marvelous place when you pass on. And the one thing you can do to get you there a bit quicker is something that stops you getting there at all.'
* she definitely has a point there. it's somehow unfair. there's that movie 'what dreams may come'. probably - it's a sign for me to see it at last.
quote number two:
[about preparation for a suicide]
'I'd finished Revolutionary Road by Richard Yates, which is a totally awesome novel. I was actually going to jump with a copy - not only because it would have been kinda cool, and would've added a little mystique to my death, but because it might have been a good way of getting more people to read it.'
* he has no point at all, but he's funny still. I like him.
quote number three:
[about living]
'Oscar Wilde once said that one's real life is often the life one does not lead. Well, fucking right on, Oscar.'
* I thought of being all tragic today. I just can't do that. I'm not a drama person. although I would like to be one. probably, I would like otherwise if I was one..
quote number four:
[about a choice whether to commit a suicide]
'Some dead people, people who were too sensitive to live: Sylvia Plath, Van Gogh, Virginia Woolf, Jackson Pollock, Primo Levi, Kurt Cobain, of course. Some alive people: George W. Bush, Arnold Schwarzenegger, Osama Bin Laden. Put a cross next to the people you might want to have a drink with, and then see whether they're on the dead side or the alive side. And, yeah, you could point out that I have stacked the deck, that there are a couple of people missing from my 'alive' list who might fuck up my argument, a few poets and musicians and so on. And you could also point out that Stalin and Hitler weren't so great, and they are lo longer with us.'
* well, if everybody would think that way the population of the planet would be reasonable.
quote number five:
[about the difference of dying and wanting to die]
'I didn't feel like a dying man; I felt like a man who every now and again wanted to die, and there's a difference. A man who wants to die feels angry and full of life and desperate and bored and exhausted, all the same time; he wants to fight everyone, and he wants to curl up in a ball and hide in a cupboard somewhere. He wants to say sorry to everyone, and he wants everyone to know just how badly they've all let him down. I can't believe that dying people feel that way, unless dying is worse than I thought. (And why shouldn't it be? every other fucking thing is worse than I thought, so why should be dying be any different?)'
* he's still funny, but he has a grip on describing his feelings very precise. I've felt that way last time I felt suicidal.
quote number six:
[about the reason of being able to kill ants]
'It's the distance that does it, of course. [...] they are just tiny dots, and you can no longer see them, literally or metaphorically. You can't make out their faces, can you, when they're just tiny dots, so you don't need to worry about whether they're happy or sad. It's why we can kill ants'
* that's why we can kill the mosquitoes and moths too..
quote number last:
[just for fun]
- He was dressed modern. He looked like he could have been in a band or something.
- A band? Which band?
- I don't know. Radiohead or someone like that.
- Why Radiohead?
(I said Radiohead because they don't look like anything much. They're just blokes, aren't they?)
- I don't know. Or Blur. Or.. Who's that guy? In that film? He's not the one who's not married to Jennifer Lopez, he's the other one, and they won an oscar, because he was good at maths even though he was only a cleaner.. The blond one. Matt.
- The angel looked like Matt Damon?
- Yeah, I suppose. A bit.
/Nick Hornby "A Long Way Down"/
plus some quotes from some other books:
[just thought-provoking]
'I care the most, because if I can do it... If leaving is the right thing to do, then I'll hurt myself to keep from hurting you, to keep you safe.'
'I don't think he ever planned to outlive you by long.'
'Well, I wasn't going to live without you. But I wasn't sure how to do it… I was thinking maybe I would go to Italy and do something to provoke the Volturi… You don't irritate them. Not unless you want to die.'
/Stephenie Meyer "Twilight" and "New Moon"/
'I care for nothing in comparisons with papa. And I’ll never — never — oh, never I have my senses, do an act or say a word to vex him. I love him better than myself, Ellen; and I know it by this — I pray every night that I live after him; because I would rather be miserable than that he should be: that proves I love him better than myself.'
'If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger.'
'I cannot live without my life! I cannot live without my soul!'
/Emily Bronte "Wuthering Heights"/
* well.. I never thought that my death would make someone grieve a lot. but now I start to think about it.. and I think I'm inclined to suffer and endure instead of making my friends and loved ones miserable..
Though I would like to die middle-aged.. |
