Garastāvoklis:	calm
Mūzika:	30 seconds to mars - Oblivion
Entry tags:	for you dear, no tears, rise, work

Don't cry
Nē, es nesēdēšu un neraudāšu visu dienu, katru dienu. Es priecāšos par visiem jaukajiem un brīnišķīgajiem mirkļiem, kas bija.

"Your tears hurt me and you", "You love me? Then stop crying, I am not dead!"

There are no goodbyes, there is till next time. And till next time I have lot of work to do with myself. I want to get back on my feet. All this time I thought that I lost it somehow. That I am not good enough, I can't handle things as good as I did, that I am not pretty enough, smart enough.
"You are just stupid." Reality check from the ones that are dear to me. I am smart and I can handle more than I think I can right now. I just need to pick my ass up of the chouch and go chase after those dreams.

Like today for example, my boss asked me to write some thoughts about city why I think it is worth to visit it so we could make brochure for tourists. After she read my writing, she said I really know how to capture things and present them so that people can let their imaginations walk the streets of the city just by reading. And just before she said it, I was laughing in my head that soon I will be professional at that kind of pieces.

Just need to keep working and finally believe what other people can see. Need to work so till next time I could be that strong, smart and intelligent lady I always wanted to become.