Yes, that is what people keep telling me. And that is completely fair.
I lost my ability to trust people when I was child. And I am not in position where I can live my life without trusting people. So, I dont.
I am just a broken boy in a broken world with broken dreams and a broken heart. I am and never was going to be anyone's answer. You cant win with a losing hand.
So, yes. F me. I am a cause of so much pain in this world which needs so much healing and love.
I took your friend away. I created the suffering you keep holding close to your heart after all these years. I am truely despicable.
I am not worth anything to keep holding me close to your heart. Release the pain. Please forgive me so you can be happy again.