Conversations with Satan 003
I saw kindness, warmth, modesty and tenderness. Came closer and looked far into a deep blue ocean. Gentle breeze took me by my shoulders. Gentle breeze touched my ears. Waves made the boat spin. Moonlight enchanted me. There was a rain of silver and a moonlight rainbow. I suddenly felt a presense of God there, I saw two angels guarding this kindness.

I try to swim closer, but they don't let me close. They say, my destiny is not suitable yet. I am not worthy. I must pass the test. But what test? And what should I do? What should I do?? I want to be there again so much...

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It's simple, my son. Listen! I always have an advise for you. I am not an irresponsible "Father God" that wants to see you humans "figure out stuff by yourselves". I am a helping hand. And here's my advise.

First of all, never stay on one place! Make the world spin in front of your eyes! Don't bind yourself with feelings towards anything. Be free! Find other oceans and seas! Compare!

Second. Never let anybody hurt you. Avoid humiliation! Avoid shame. It brings unnecessary feelings.

Third. Work as hard, as you can - this will make you stronger. Zeal - even God likes to see it in you humans. All tests are about strength. The stronger you will get physically, the stronger your character will be, too. And when strong, you will pass all possible tests.

One extra advise. Forget about God. He only cares about his lost ewes. You love God and all his creation, don't you? Unfortunately God is too busy with his lost ewes, to take care about you - more or less righteous. So... get lost! And you'll get lucky!

And I know the way to stray! And it's an easy way! Formula is - to take care of yourself! Listen to what you fell you need, and fulfill it! Live a life! And things will only will get better.

You will never feel any pain. Especially in your grint to dust heart...