"I'm crying out loud.."
My eyes burn..I think from crying too much. I sat by my front door in that little room and looked outside hoping he'd come visit...I listened to Avril Lavigne "Losing Grip" on repeat for a good while while looking at a picture of me and him from his homecoming while hugging Pickles(stuffed animal),The closest thing I have to a friend right now. Everything in my house reminds me of him and I want to move out. I want to just go away..I need something to take me mind off of this..but nothing helps...i hate crying..but at the same time it's my only comfort..I guess that's why I'm still crying..