"It's always been up to you.."
I have too much on my mind and when not busy I keep thinking.. So I tried keeping myself busy by trying to pray and that didn't work. So I tried singing and that also didn't work all I can do is think of Merrit. ::sigh:: I want to cry but I stop myself. I've called him but he has called ID on his cell so I think he's avoiding me.....::shrug:: why do I even try?...I callled both of his houses. I didn't bother asking his brother where he is since I think his whole family dislikes me...I think I'll stop but it's something I can't help...I just want to say...i'm sorry.