es neienīstu
sevi par to, kā es izskatos. Most of the time I'm luckily unaware of my appearance, vismaz līdz reizei, kad ieraugu sevi kādā bildē vai kā tamlīdzīgi.

Es ienīstu sevi par to, kā izskatās mana dvēsele. My experiences have left it dreadfully ruined. I'm aware of this ugly scene all of the time.

As far as I know, many people aren't great at handling this; not in themselves, and not in others.