i feel i need to get out of here. this house these strange
people around me I dont want to be living together.
Living in a party house is not for me at all.
I need too much personal space for peace of mind,
for not getting lost in the social sorroundings
that I don't even belong to. Before changing the sorroundings
though do try and change yourself. Set yourself terms
with your free time including social life and how you want to spend it.

spend it on hours long sleeping not wanting to get up just to face
the day simply cos youve had too much weed drink or other stuff the other day?
Thats weak. I look at people snorting drinking and smoking
everything there is to offer just chasing that ultimate high.
Getting fucked off theyr tits is the only objective.
Its sad when everyone elses perception of a party is just that.

If there is someone who knows and believes that there is more to life
it should be me. Life is beautiful when its beautifully managed.

Excercise takes me out of this shithole and keeps me focused on objectives
which need a review as well as a week hard toll with no nights out.

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Its me and myself. I need to get to the right path direction and balance in the future year
and everything will go up. I need to excercise and need to pick my game up.
Thats why Im here. Im living the dream now!! Make use of it!