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--hmm...today was interesting but sad. carly ann (a friend on my race team) has a friend who was up at steven's yesterday and fell after he caught an edge grinding on a rail. he was with two other boys and they thought he was fine so they all skied down and when they got to the bottom he started having seizures. carly said they had to hold his tongue down to keep him from swallowing it. they airlifted him to harborview and he's been in a coma the whole time. carly went down last night and didn't want to come back to train today but her parents thought it would be better than sitting around all day driving herself crazy worrying about him. she doesn't want to go to school tomorrow either. this must be so hard. they did the first cat scan last night and they couldn't see anything because there was so much blood and swelling in his brain. they had to drill something into his skull to try and relieve the pressure. they did another cat scan at 4 AM but it didn't tell them anything new. he started breathing on his own today which is a good thing. but he's still unconscious. i guess his family is pretty good friends with carly's because she said her mom will probably go stay with his mom at the hospital. it's really weird because i could barely stand hearing about this and i don't even know the kid. i really can't imagine what it's been like for carly or his family. --lately i've noticed that terrain parks are really dangerous, mostly because you don't have to have any qualifications to use them. we don't let random skiers our race courses, because they wouldn't know how to do it safely. anyone who feels like it can just go into the terrain park whenever they want, no matter how inexperienced they are. shouldn't they have some sort of limitation on that? oh yah, and he was wearing a helmet and just hit his head on the snow. but it guess that's all it takes. my mom thinks he may have had an aneurysm before that.--before this i was starting to think that everything happened for a reason. now i don't know what to think. was this supposed to happen to him? kids shouldn't have to die, or worry about dying. maybe this is why some people stop believing in god when some one close to them dies. i don't know whether people have a set time that they're supposed to leave us; if god is really in charge of everything. in that case do our actions have nothing to do with the results? if i want to believe that i can affect what happens in my future can i not believe in god too? i guess i'm trying to find an answer that people have always been looking for. it's not likely i'm going to be the one to find it.