I cant sleep any longer..my body is going weird lately...it is 6am and I feel nothing! I should feel tired, my bones should ache but no...

it is comparatively silent outside. I even opened window. And it smells good. there is no chinesse food smell in the air this morning...strange...maybe that damn restaurant has died finally....actually I can smell spring in the air and that is even more strange...

but maybe my senses are benumbed...

I remember me when I was little..I used to visit my granny who lived on countryside... I hated all those scents around....there were just too many and I couldnt appreciate each one of them....

here I can wonder about every single thing...a bird on my sill, autumn leaf on the pavement, flowers....

I will buy flowers today...they are so expensive but definatelly worth it...may-lillies most likely...