Garastāvoklis:	calm
Mūzika:	Chris Cornell - You know my name
Entry tags:	getting shit together, learing from mistakes, patience

Mācos...
Nekas nav ideāli, bet tāpēc es nemetīšos atpakaļ tur, kur biju. Tas būtu nepieņemami pielaist tās pašas kļūdas. Es mācos no savām kļūdām.

So I will get my emotional shit together and stand over it strong and patient. Pati sevi nevaru ciest, kad palieku tāda nīkulīga, sevis žēlotāja un dzenos pakaļ bezjēgā. Nevienam no tā nav nekāda labuma. Tādā stāvoklī nav brīnums, ka viss, ko sagaidu ir pilnībā pretēji tam, ko saņemu. It begins with me.

Still it doesn't change my decision, my feelings and choice for him.

I shall not kneel, I shall not rule. I shall respect myself and the other, even if I feel undervalued and less important than anything else for him. Last time I checked this feeling of not being appreciated was the one thing that screwed everything up.