Garastāvoklis:	calm
Mūzika:	Patricia Kaas - l'amour devant la mer

09.11.10

Well alright
Oh lord
Well alright

Drive your high heel into my heart
I don't even care
Cause my pride is worth much more than your
Your stupid little love
Every word that you say keeps on bouncing around in my head
When all my delusions of grandeur have turned into bad jokes instead
You'll be there pointing and laughing to prove you were wiser than I
Well I'm just pretending perfection
I'm flying uncomfortably high

It feels like I'm falling
/Mike Posner - Falling/

People are self-centered beings, it is hard not to be. Once I cared a lot, but they all bit me back. Everything is fine till you say or do something they might not like. Problem is you can't really do good at all times for everyone. I accept it and in order not to loose myself trying so bad to be good for everyone I just keep my distance and stay focused on my life and my own things. It doesn't mean that don't care at all. They always come back when they need something and of course I will always try to help. It is foolish to expcet that they will give you hand when you'll need it, because they simply don't care. Those who come back when they don't need anything from me are truly people I trust. Still it hurts kind of, but yeah, people are different.

Every single part of my body hurts, but this pain is good.

Positive things of the day - some people were pretty kind today, smiled and opened the doors, some people made me smile, called museum and they gave the green light to visitation. Yeah, I know, I have to do better that this. There is no really good excuse.