Lai man tikai pasaka, ka tas ko es domāju nepiepildās. Reizēm es baidos pat iedomāties, jo tad tas var patiešām notikt. I can see my face back then and hear what I've said and now it is just like that. Remeber that I said - you will go away and then I won't see you for a long time. And when I will be here, you will be away...and when you will be here I will be away.

Do you know me anymore? Do I know myself anymore? I don't have answer to my question. Not jet anyway.
I don't blame anyone. That is how things are, but I just have this weird feeling...and I don't like it.
My world now is full of unknown things. Some seem to be scary, some challenging, some - fun, but still unknown. I like to be sure of what is coming, but I'm not right now. That's why I am better not thinking about things...exams, school. Today I tried to read history book, but I didn't pay much attention to what I read, cause my mind travels around.
And again. It's just me and nobody that can help me to walk my way. It isn't a bad thing...no. It is a good thing, cause I have to prove myself that I'm strong and that I can do it.
Will see what happens.