31 May 2017 @ 05:10 pm
 
gribaas izzust, atkratiities no sevis blje, aizmirst, aukstasiniigi pasiivi noskatiities kaa viss, viss, viss, viss, par ko domaaju 'es', 'mana dziive', 'manas emocijas', 'manas ideologjijas', viss sabruuk miljons shkjiedraas, daljinjaas, shkjembaas, putekljos un pashkjiist veejaa, liidz paliek tiirs, svaigs tukshums. viss ko juutu, redzu, domaaju ir tikai tizli fragmenti. skaisti, magjiski, bet tizli fragmenti. nav gariiga speeka iztiiriit maaju, iztiiriit praatu. aiziet paskriet, iet uz pasaakumiem, runaaties ar cilveekiem, buut labaakai sevis versijai, sevi paardot, demonstreet. paarliecinaat citus, ka es vinjiem varu nodereet, ka es esmu likteniigi noderiiga, kas es luuk buushu taa, kas neatgriezeniski izmainiis laiktelpu. nee ..

veelviens gads paiet, kur es savus miiljaakos meeneshus maiju un juuniju pavadu neesot. jo siikaak es aprakstu sevis nemiileeshanu, taas dailjaas nianses, esteetika un poeezija, kolosaala fantastika, jo nemiileeshana lielaaka veerpjaas. jo vairaak to nokluseeju, jo veel lielaaka taa veerpjaas. dazhas dienas es gandriiz ticu, ka es gandriiz eksisteeju kaa cilveeks, kas var tomeer mazliet padziivot. paareejaas dienas tomeer lietas es atpaziistu skaidri un bez shaubaam. juutos kaa iekaarusies braucoshas mashiinas pakaljaa un knapi turos, kameer puteklji sitas riiklee, akmenji draazh un galva dun. kameer citi vada savus glaunos burzhuju vaagjus un iestuuree pa taisno paradiizee, pat neskatoties uz celju, tur tikushi perfekti noparkojas.

bet viss ir labi, it's just normal, this my life, this will do, es palikshu shajaa nestabilajaa in and out of existence staavoklii tik ilgi cik tas notiks. it is what it is. patiesi, notiec kaa gribi dziive, nekaada katarse, uzticams limbo, dazhas lietas, dazhi iespaidi, nekas, kaut kas, bez izmainjaam, un taa joprojaam. esmu gatava
 
 
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cukursēne[info]saccharomyces on May 31st, 2017 - 10:18 pm
Tev nav tur obligāti jāpaliek. manuprāt, ļoti piemērots dzejolis:

The Laughing Heart

your life is your life
don’t let it be clubbed into dank submission.
be on the watch.
there are ways out.
there is a light somewhere.
it may not be much light but
it beats the darkness.
be on the watch.
the gods will offer you chances.
know them.
take them.
you can’t beat death but
you can beat death in life, sometimes.
and the more often you learn to do it,
the more light there will be.
your life is your life.
know it while you have it.
you are marvelous
the gods wait to delight
in you.

(Charles Bukowski)
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cimone[info]cimone on June 1st, 2017 - 11:31 am
paldies par dzejoli
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