03 May 2017 @ 05:34 pm
 
es gribeetu, lai man dziivee apkaart ir vairaak nedepresiivu cilveeku. es peedeejaaa laikaa juutos, kaa visi (dazhi, ljoti maz) paziistamie cilveeki padodas skumju purvam. taads tumshs duljkjainums, un vinji labpraataak tur vaaljaajas un vaimanaa, nekaa domaa par kaut ko gaishu. protams, es apzinos, ka dziive by default ir bitchslappin' vobla, un ka cilveekiem ir tiesiibas uz heartfelt vantablack downward spiral, bet kur tad ir mana vieta? justies aizvien vientuljaak un vientuljaak savaa dziives izjuutaa starp it kaa paziistamiem civleekiem kurus es paziistu aizvien mazaak un mazaak? sliideet projaam kameer vinji sliid projaam, normaali - expansion of the universe. man ir taada sajuuta, ka vecaa pasaule mani leeni bet uzstaajiigi stumj aaraa, bet veel nav nekaadas jaunaas pasaules, kas mani uzkjertu. well, i guess i will just potter around on my own.

jebkuraa gadiijumaa, es juutos mieriigi. mani nekas nevar izniicinaat, jo es jau biju izniicinaata simts reizes ieprieksh.
 
 
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[info]miegamaasa on May 3rd, 2017 - 09:43 pm
bet būt nedepresīvam ir socially isolating in an age of postmodernism un depressed peeps who want to pick things apart and disassemble everything while the nondepressed peep wants to put things together and make it whole un thus but nedepresivam ir kinda lonely but it's okay cause you're not depressed about your loneliness, it just... is a state of your being, i guess i meant to say i hear ya, it's a familiar yearning.
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[info]methodrone on May 5th, 2017 - 09:28 pm
jaa! i also want to put things together and make it whole. i wish i could hang out with you more. baigi pietruukst iedvesmojoshu praatu, bet varbuut tas ir tikai kaarteejs paarbaudiijums :)
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