I am extremely sorry for the part I've done in this. Please, do know that it has never been intentional to hurt you in any way and if there are steps that I can take to make things even slightly better, do please communicate them to me. I know it's not easy to trust. But I believe that there is a way.
No matter all the ups and downs and all the walls of silence and distrust, I hope you still do know that I love you dearly. Even if it's just in my own lowly, pathetic way.