I just felt like confessing my feelings about running & if this is not for you, don't bother reading all of this.
I always hated working out . I hated sports in school, tried to avoid it as much as I can, cause I always hated myself for not being able to do all the other stuff that others can do... I felt lame, fat and physically weak, not flexible enough. I always started to sweat fast, always turned red & I was ashamed of myself,that I'm just not as fit as everyone else. I still do get sweaty too fast & my face turns all red, but i don't care now. I'm facing myself as I am. Cause I'm trying to be healthy, I'm trying to except & love myself the way I am. Until this day, I could never ever in my life imagine that I wouldn't be able to live without running . Everyone can do something better or worse. Our bodies are not the same & so my education system was wrong!! So what I can't do 10 push ups? So what I don't jump far enough for my age!? I never understood how could my physics can be measured in grades..& that made me hate sports. Made me hate it so much,that I thought what is the point of even trying?
But now years later, i understand. It's not about how much you can do, it's not about running the fastest. It's about health, physical health & mental health. It's about taking care of your body, not torturing yourself. It's about making yourself feel alive.
Recently I lost a lot of weight as you all know, started to eat somewhat healthy, but that just wasn't enough. Cause after losing weight, I started to feel very energetic, full of life, energy & I didn't know were to put it. So this spring I started with little work outs at home & running. I still can't do push ups. But I can do lot of different things, that helps to tone up body, make my blood flowing. After runs I always feel so happy, with my red face & sweat everywhere, I take a picture, to capture that emotion. I know these are not my greatest photos, but I don't care. I believe everyone can find their body magic activity.
I was soo tired today after working,but I went for that run, cause it's my drug now. My mind is calm & body relaxed. Don't be scared. Find your active lifestyle 💙