Normally I love going on AS to debate and stuff
Normally I love going on AS to debate and stuff... but now I feel like I kill every thread that I post on. A bunch of people see me as the smart kid, as most of the people there are in Uni or about to go to Uni, but maybe they see me as a know-it-all. Yugoloth replied to one of my questions, and I debated his post by posting a reply... and no one has replied since, even him. When I create a new thread, barely anyone responds to it, but when Matt and Kali start a new thread, it's all the rage. I dunno... I feel especially young there. Kinda like, the kid you pat on the head and nod to what they say, but think otherwise. I dunno... I just feel awkward now, both online and IRL. Like how Dianne and Alexis are invited to parties and stuff with people our age group... I mean, I'm older than both of them by I think six months, but they seem more mature than I am in that way. I'm the shy one who's teacher's pet and always has my nose stuck in a book. I dunno... I guess that's why I feel more comfortable around adults, because they don't judge as quickly. Like when I was shadowing Mommy, and when I was with Kip. That was just awesome. Compare that to... heck, just class, and I'm a completely different person. Lol, add to that the fact that I feel *completely* and absolutely single at the moment, and that the moon is full ::cough cough:: and I'm an emotional disaster. Lord, I wish I was already in Uni... at least I could do what I want, and I won't feel as insecure. Insecurity sucks.