until tonight it was just sex. in my opinion. best sex ever i have had. while my husband was at work, while neighbours were sleeping, time to time when my husband was gone from my life. this has been my summer. a lot of revelations for me. about myself, about what i can feel.
until tonight. first time ever he asked if he was good enough for me. and it broke my heart.
until tonight i never let myself to think. ask questions. ask anything. i did not let myself to feel.
as i have said before - i am so happy that i need to hide it from everybody. i am scared. he is the best thing in my life at this point. he has been holding me while i was down. he was one of the first persons to see me after my husband beat me up. but until tonight it was just sex between us.
now i feel we are in different level. i feel i am looked after. even if it`s just sex what really connects us..