the only connection i have to sex nowadays is through porn. sometimes i watch it, with a mixture of purely animal pleasure and pure disgust. those faceless men, all grunts and cocks, i hate them. because they remind me of you. you speak the same language. to my surprise i just realized that i have a strong aversion to sex in general. because it reminds me of you. sex is you. and as long as it's true, i guess i will have to remain sexless.