funeral day :(((((
today was the funeral...and although i came their in a pretty good mood, it changed.... i started to realise that i didn`t want him to go, that i cared about him, that i actually loved him!
But one thing did bother me when i came there, why do people go to the funeral when they know they`re gonna crack and start crying??? Just like my dad, it was actually the first time i saw him cryin`, cryin` from the pain he felt loosing his dad...that made me realise that, i don`t wanna loose my dad, no matter what,no matter all the pain and suffering he caused me, my sis or my mom....
i would crack, i don`t know what would happen to me if somethin` happened to him........
I know he is sitting now at home and drinking....and i wanna just be there to help him out, but i know that if a person has lost his mom or dad, he has to go through it himself, that`s all i can say............