vsp man skiet, nee, es zinu, ka pa shiem diviem gadiem (pisies dirst ar saviem diviem gadiem, apniki jau. - whatever.) esmu khm.. degradejusies. bet, i mean, there is a valid reason for this. the reason being what Morrissey said - about the light that never goes out. i think it did - for me it did. it's not just about T., no, it's about that light in general. i am too old to sustain it any longer. i am too tired. i just want to make peace with the fact that i am to remain homeless. men come and go - vakar, nee, aizvakar pat atkal uzradaas maarlijs, atkal pargulejam (yeah, two-night stand..) - kind of jauki, bet dispassionately. i don't know, maybe i could keep him as my lover. es tachu gribeju loveri, vai ne? nu luuk, this would be my opportunity. i don't know. yes, i guess i could. man skiet, vins ari ir vientuls un kind of miserable un desperate. tikai.. es juutos tik veca ar vinu. seriously. lai gan esam viena vecuma, es juutos vecaka, un man taa ir pilnigi nebijusi pieredze, kuraa laikam vel nejuutos isti komfortabli.