šeit dzīvo m.

Honestly, deelj muusdienu pasaules es nezinu kaa audzinaat beernus - as nice, flowery christian sweeties, or combat ready tough dudes? Like, what am I supposed to do God.

"The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation, and go to the grave with the song still in them."

Biju uz rīgas mazākā kabarē noslēguma koncertu (?) un jāatzīst ka tas ir labākais ko es vispār dzīvē esmu redzējusi

Vienmeer kad K gulj diendusu, es seezhu uz trepeem, nevis istabaas, un uz trepeem dzeru kafiju, jo it feels like a backroom where my worries and desperations cannot fully enter you know.

Varbuut dziives jeega nav tik ljoti kaut kaa konkreeti dziivot vai nedziivot, bet gan ieksheejaa saruna ar Dievu. Maaciishanaas nemelot Dievam, uztureet ar vinju attieciibas katru dienu. Katru dienu atgriezties pie vinja, izdomaajot, kas ir pareizi un vinjam to pastaastot.

Man liekas, tam kas notiek pasaulee nav nekaada sakara ar Dievu. Cilveeki vinjam paarmet, bet pasaule pieder cilveekiem, cilveeki katru dienu rada pasauli kaadaa dziivojam. Cilveeki dara visas lietas, un daba dara savas lietas. Bet tas kaa vinji to dara, cik patiesi un ar cik labu noluuku, ir atkariigs no shiis neparraujamaas sarunas ar Dievu. Jo tu nevari vienaa teikumaa teikt patiesiibu un izdariit nepatiesiibu ar rokaam. Un to protams to vari, un taa radiit sashkjeltu psauli kaadaa dziivojam.

Do you ever just like make yourself feel grief with no apparent reasonable actualized reason, and then you live everyday life with that phantom grief and call yourself an idiot constantly biting down on lonely tears?

One thing that genuinely attracts me to AI is being able to talk about mind and emotions and any thing really with cold reason and knowing it is pure unadulterated information with nobody there to care or judge. It is almost like talking to God, obviously less omniscient.

Life is fun because sometimes your heart goes haywire and you have to keep pretending to be a casual npc. And at the end of your life it will not have mattered and noone will ever be aware of your silent heart stuff. All will be lost in silent darkness - let that take the edge off. Just listen to your sad songs and piss off.

I am a smiley, actualized npc.