May I please rip my heart out?
I don't really want to start whining about someone who's an actor, twice my age, married and has a kid and lives in the US... or at least I think he lives there...
I feel so pathetic, moronic, stupid, miserable and so on... AND I don't feel like I'm 20... I should be 12 to still dream about actors x_x
I wonder how I never noticed him before I read the Twilight saga... although he has nothing to do with it... but he never bothered me before...

ARGHGAWD!!!!!!!!!!!! hate my self... seriously -_-