That book's messing up my head... can't get it straight... having a little chaos in my head...
ARGH!!!
Be warned: don't read further if you don't really want to...
Anyway, the thing is... I don't even remember why I stopped reading the book just 10 min ago... I know I wanted to write/say/ something but I don't remember...
It had something to do with books and movies and crying and happy endings and liking and hate and... there was something else... oh yes, death and vampires...
I know the book has a happy ending and nobody actually dies (yes, i accidentally spied on the last page), except for Bella in a way, but that was clear from the beginning that she would be turned into a vampire too, so it's no surprise, but all the books did make me think about that immortality stuff and so and i just couldn't do that, but that's not what I wanted to say... that's off topic...
I love happy endings, but I also hate them... must be my envy on one hand, on the other, it's just sad that it's an end and there's no "ever after"...
That reminds me of "Happily N'Ever After" where all the stories ended with the end and started over again to end with the same end, until the evil step-mom came and played a bit, but still - it had the same-"happily ever after"-type ending, but i admit - it was on a happier note saying that they would find out what that "happily ever after" meant... but that's offtopic...
It stopped snowing...
I can't decide if i love or hate books and movies that make me cry (like this book and "Moulin Rouge" and many others)... on one hand - it's really good that they can provoke such an emotion (is crying even an emotion?)... or more like reflex to my emotions... but I hate things that make me sad or angry... I hate them and it doesn't matter that I like to cry while reading a book or watching a movie...
My hands are trembling, but that's not even relevant nor associated to the story...
And I want to go snowboarding...
I hate feeling empty... and I hate having chaos in my head...
I just read this post... it seems that i'm having a fight with my self...
I've always known there's more than one "me" inside me...
But it's actually amazing that books even CAN make you cry... I mean - they're just books...
And the first thing I think about in the morning when I wake up is the story...
I need help I think... I hope it's not from the early snow though... that would be sad :/
I want tea :/
I don't get it, how can a werewolf fall in love with the just born baby-girl of the girl he loved? Who is btw, a half-vampire...
I knew there was something wrong with the book... there had to be!!!!!!!
I'm gonna go and make myself some tea...
My mind's processing too fast, i can't catch up... kinda weird feeling... I know I won't be able to sleep now until it slows down or has an overload and just shuts down...
Maybe I should get a life :/
Maybe I should stop making nonsense... as much as I'd love to continue on that...
And it's not just this book... it's all 4 of them...
I'd gladly talk to someone now... really...
Maybe next time...