Ai, pohuj. Viirs uzvedaas kaa izlutinaats punjkjutapa un man PMS, taa kaa viss ljoti jutiigs. Pagaishreiz, kad shitaa besijaas, telefonaa nomainiiju kontaktu no vinja miiljvaarda uz doto vaardu, shoreiz kaazu bildes vietaa ieliku kakji. Taa, luuk, pamazaam attaalinos. Kaa saka, sievietes piedod, bet nekad neaizmirst. Katrs tizlums, katra saape, katra asara kraajas burcinjaa, kas vienaa dienaa pliisiis.

Viirs chiiksteeja, ka nevar savaakties dokumentus sakraameet, es vinjam ieteicu noskatiities Marie Kondo Netflix seerijas. Nepagaaja ne nedeelja, kaa vinjsh saaka mani maaciit, kaa lociit vinja zekjes un kaa organizeet manu skapi un veel tirinaajaas, ka man pashai jaanoskataas, jo man redz paaraak daudz mantu esot.

Peedeejaas paaris dienas ar viiru pirms guleetieshanas kopaa lasaam gultaa. Finally!

Es gribeetu ieteikt cilveekiem nepreceeties. Nahuj, pilniigi nevajadziigi.

Protams, Tomam neko neatbildeeju. Rezultaataa vinjsh noleema uzrakstiit veel visaadas drazinjas feisbukjii:

"I'm listening to mushroom jazz volume 2 now. Nostalgia vibes! Sorry if I was spiky a couple of weeks ago. Nono dropped dead recently and my mood turned foul shortly after. I have no more grandparents sadly ..... But sorry if my tone was harsh. You know what I'm like, passionate geezer. I didn't intend to go on the attack. I was just feeling sad 😞 I won't forget how supportive you were of me over the years. I'll always remember and appreciate that 😘

And look, if dressing as an Indian guru and meditating at Brooklyn vegan rooftop parties makes you happy, then that's what you have to do. I find it embarrassing, but we are not connected any more, so why should you give a shit about my opinion. Your unwashed Brooklyn hipster boyfriend obviously appreciates it, so that's what's important ultimately. Who gives a fuck what cultured people think these days. Planet earth is going down the toliet either way. So just do what makes you happy. Anyway, sorry for being spiky. It's kinda a habit of mine. But I'm sure you know that 😉 I hope professional life and Brooklyn life is going well. Lots of kisses, and forgive my bad behaviour xxx"

Veel jo mazaak gribaas kaut ko atbildeet. Varbuut uzrakstiis veel!

Situ galvu pret sienu, censhoties saprast, kas manii notiek, jo viss, kas notiek apkaart, tachu naak no iekshas. Izraudaajos tik taalu, ka beidzot pieleca, ko viirs visu laiku centies paskaidrot, bet es neesmu bijusi speejiiga redzeet pati. Taa vietaa, lai vinjaa klausiitos, uzstaaju, lai vinjsh klausaas mani, un rezultaataa viens otru nemaz nedzirdeejaam, tik uzstaajaam, ka otra persona neklausaas. Bet patiesiibaa es biju taa, kas neklausiijaas. Es neklausiijos, kaa vinjsh centaas mani stuureet virzienaa uz augshu, un taa vietaa uzstaaju, ka mans virziens ir pareizaaks. Bet koliidz paarmainjas peec iedomaajos apsveert, ka vinjam vareetu buut taisniiba, viss mainiijaas. Peekshnji viss, ko viirs peedeejo seshu meeneshu laikaa centaas man paskaidrot, bija aciimredzams, un uzreiz kljuva skaidrs, kaa es sevi liidz shim suudam biju novedusi.

Iisaak sakot, staasta moraale, ka, kaa gan var gaidiit jaunu rezultaatu, ja turpina veco uzvediibu. No sirds iesaku jebkura striida situaacijaa apsveert, ka varbuut otrs cilveeks necenshaas iespiiteet taapat prikola peec, ka varbuut otrs cilveeks iisteniibaa censhas tev paliidzeet.

First you whispered
I couldn't hear you
Then you cleared your throat and tried again
I didn't pay attention
You made your statements more assertive
I decided you are wrong
You shouted from the depth of your navel
I wrote it all off as background noise
So you stopped talking

In silence all your words crawled out of my subconscious
They settled in my heart and waited
For me to read what you meant
I tried to listen with my mind
While it was your soul touching mine
Your love was there from the very beginning
So we started talking again

Ak dies, ak dies. Londonas Toms izdomaaja, ka jaauzraksta man feisbukjii:

"Hey babe. My family just told me you got married. Congratulations 😘 you know you have our support always! Blessings my babe .... I checked your Instagram recently and I was very surprised. Why you behaving like some Indian dude when you come from Latvia? Strange behaviour .... You are one of the most decent girls on planet earth. I will love you til the day we're dead. I don't like to see you trying to impress white American scum. Your better than that. Stop acting like a clown and take some respect of your natural beauty. Send my love to your family. I love them very much ..... I know you put hate on my name, but me and my family love you very much. Remember that, and remember who you are .... don't behave like some disgraceful white chick who doesn't give a fuck about anything. White hipster culture is the most horrible in the world right now. I would like to think your better than that xxx

And why are you named after Boris Johnson's wife??? Keep your maiden name for fake sack. No one wants to be associated with Tory party scum ..... this is why the last 3 girls I've dated are Muslim. They understand what it is to be a decent woman .... It's so sad what's happened to white western culture recently. We sit hear and prented, when let's face it, half our people our cultural stealing fakers. Sad to see 😞"

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Ko man atbildeet Tomam?

Kaut ko citu:

Biju uz reiva balliiti skatiities ugunjoshanu, un cilveeku puulii ieraudziiju Vikingu ar savu blondiini. Saakumaa bija neliela panika, bet noleemu, ka vareeshu mieriigi izvairiities no vinja, sleepjoties aiz draugu barinja. Vienaa briidii gan vinjsh kopaa ar duudinju nogaaja man garaam, bet pat nepaskatiijaas sejaa. Vai tieshaam mani neatpazina? Vai arii tiishpraat gaidiija no manis reakciju? Jebkuraa gadiijumaa, uz vakara beigaam kljuva arvien lielaaks pofigs par vinja klaatbuutni. Izraadaas mani tas vairs nemaz tik ljoti neuztrauc.

Nekaadiigi nevaru izdomaat, kaadas kaazas gribu.

Gribeeju pastaastiit par to, ka iepazinos ar draudzenes braali, kursh man ljoti patika, bet tad sapratu, ka nav tas nemaz tik interesanti.

Baigi. Nav slikti paciemoties Riigaa, bet veel daudz pie sevis jaastraadaa, lai te buutu labi.

Nopirku sev shiku cepuri. Taa es tieku paari attieciibu probleemaam - peerku daargas lietas, bez kuraam mieriigi varu izdziivot.

Viirietis nosliidzinaaja manu Jambox vannaa un kopsh marta nebija maksaajis reekjinu par elektriibu un gaazi. Un vispaar atkal nodarbojas ar pilniigaakajaam stulbiibaam, lai sevi klusaam izniicinaatu.

Protams, ka tagad pikta esmu.

Visu laiku solis uz priekshu un divi atpaklaj.

Biedzot nopirku biljetes uz Riigu. Buusim pieejami no 6. taa liidz 14. decembrim, ja ir veelme iepaziities ar manu liigavaini :)

Vakar visu dienu biju ciitiiga maajsaimnieciite - izmazgaaju velju, iztiiriiju dziivokli, pagatavoju lazanjju (ne vegaano paarmainjas peec, lai viirieti palutinaatu). Izraadaas, ja tiiriishanas procesu njem nopietni, tas aiznjem ljoti daudz laika. Mugura saapeeja ljoti ljoti, un shoriit kjermenis veel joprojaam kokains, bet, ak, cik skaisti dziivoklis izskataas! Un lazanjja arii tik garda sanaaca! Jaa, es pagarshoju, jaa, es eedu galju. Jo, manupraat, mest galju aaraa ir veel briesmiigaak nekaa eest.

Nav taa, ka es sevii redzeetu baigaas paarmainjas, bez izraadaas, ka cilveecinji apkaart pamana. Liimeejas klaat visaadi skaisti viirieshi. A man panika iestaajas, es tachu nezinu, kaa vinjus atshuut.

Sapnjoju, ka esmu staavoklii, bet tad atcereejos, ka man ir spiraale, uztaisiiju gruutnieciibas testu un izraadiijaas, ka neesmu gan. Labi, ka taa, jo nez kaapeec beerna teevs bija kaut kaads dzheks, ko tikai nedeelju deitoju.

Atkal Drjuu manos sapnjos lien. Shoreiz mees ar Kregu kopaa tirinaajaamies prieciigi, un Drjuu piegaaja man klaat un apskaava mani ljoti ljoti, un teica, ka vinjam manis pietruukst. Man liekas, ka es vinju atstuumu, jo reakcija bija, "blje, nelien man klaat, kaa es shito Kregam tagad skaidroshu?"

Krega mamma ir riktiigi forsha.