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[Jan. 22nd, 2017|12:29 am] |
- Sofija, you are totally misunderstanding Tinder. You should write to people in your proximity, so you could meet them. Not chatting with the people you sort of avoided before, now when there are miles between you (to be precise 984 km), and ignore all the new people in 1 km radius. You do you even "like" them if you're planning to ignore them? |
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| Forever not the person people want me to be |
[Jan. 21st, 2017|08:44 pm] |
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It took me a good 20 years to more or less like myself, to more or less accept that I'll never be good enough for my mum. To start enjoying the things I like without having a bad conscience about it. And not feeling bad about what I want and what I don't want.
And it is really sad that my best friend after 10 years of friendship suddenly tries to change me, which at first led to me being pissed, but lately leads to me growing apart from her and blocking things she says.
Un vsp - so what if I'd better take an extra shift at the clinic than go to drink overpriced drinks at the bar with people I don't know? [un as I said - there are people I would have gone to the bar with. I will not spend the evening mortifying myself..] |
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| 20+ |
[Jan. 15th, 2017|11:01 pm] |
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| | soļi aiz durvīm | ] |
FYI: Another year has past - and I'm officially allowed to plunge into GWTW |
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[Jan. 12th, 2017|10:17 pm] |
kad vācieši Tev iedala gumijniekus ar aizsargpurngaliem pret govs uzkāpšanu, un vecāki, būdami Berlīnē, paķers līdzi vilnas zeķes -> Dzīve iet uz labo pusi. Tagad tik līdz Berlīnei jāaizbrauc :D |
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| something "reassuring" I read on fb |
[Jan. 8th, 2017|02:20 pm] |
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| | extra introvert :D | ] |
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| | radiotev.lv | ] |
"Yet another veterinarian took her own life yesterday, and another is in danger today. Another needed rescuing just a couple of weeks ago. Listen guys, your vet is not "in it for the money." They're not "uneducated about nutrition and vaccines." They're not trying to poison your pet to make a buck. They are struggling. Almost all of them. The kind of people who are attracted to veterinary medicine are compassionate, they are perfectionists, they are overachievers, and ironically, most of them are introverts and freaking exhausted by dealing with people all day. They care about your pets as much as you do, and often more so, in the (daily) cases of terrible pet owners who argue with them and neglect basic care for their pets." |
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[Jan. 7th, 2017|02:57 pm] |
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- Ir 2 brīvdienas un nākamajās 2 nedēļās tādu nebūs.. BET all i want to do - ir gulēt gultā zem segas un lasīt grāmatu.
- What about checking out the city??
- Rīt.
- Nu labi. What about food? Rīt visi veikali būs ciet. un pirmdien labi, ja atbrīvosies līdz 19iem.
- arghh. You're such a killjoy!! Did I mention - it's too cold?
- Too cold to eat??
p.s. it's only been a week and you're already talking to yourself, congrats! |
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| First times: |
[Jan. 6th, 2017|10:00 pm] |
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| | excited and tired | ] |
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| | repeat abook | ] |
Vairākas lietas šodien notika pirmoreiz:
Pirmoreiz uzvilku divus džinsu pārus vienlaicīgi (bet termolegingiem vnlg palika žēl naudas, jo "sals jau drīz beigsies.. jau taču janvāris!" - loģiski).
Pirmoreiz braucu ar "šauro riteni" un pirmoreiz riteņoju pie -11°C.
Pirmoreiz rektāli izmeklēju lamu.
Pirmoreiz (šonedēļ) ierados klīnikā 6:45.. jo tramvajs kavēja, un es uz to paspēju :D
labi, šodienai pietiks.. |
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| ko Sofija dzirdēja |
[Sep. 7th, 2016|11:23 pm] |
- Mammu.. pagājušajā gadā, kad es biju trešajā klasē, es nemaz nepamanīju, cik ātri skrien laiks.
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- Ja, es vēl kādreiz izdomāju iet un kko studēt, vnk aproc mani kkur.. mežā.. vnlg kur..
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- Vācijā kursā ir ap 200 cilvēkiem, ja ne vairāk, te mēs esam 13, tātad izglītības kvalitāte daudz labāka.
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- Jums te ir Copy-shop vai kkas tamlīdzīgs, kur es varētu skeneri izmantot?
- Kam Tev skeneris? man ir telefonā skenera aplikācija, skaties...
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bija vēl kkas bet pēkšņi aizmirsu. atcerēšos - ierakstīšu.. |
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[Jul. 15th, 2016|10:58 pm] |
I'm not a hugger. I've never been a hugger. But I really, really crave a hug, or just any kind of physical contact, which is not my thing at all. And I'm surprised.
It's all this being alone from day to day, I can almost understand all the girls who are in a constant seek for a partner. And I start to believe my mother - who says that noone should be alone. It's not like I have a lot of physical contact in my normal life - I hug some of my friends, casually snuggle up to my dad, mostly I just try to strangle my dog with love..
I miss my dog.
only 44 days left.. |
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| being somebody else |
[Jul. 5th, 2016|10:13 pm] |
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| | tired | ] |
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| | vētra aiz loga un turku valoda blakus istabā | ] |
9 dienas bez tējas, filmām, alkohola, interneta, spilvena.. pluss joprojām neesmu redzējusi pēdējo GOT sēriju.
And I've survived..
bet tomēr, acīmredzot, dzīves kvalitāte sāk uzlaboties.. ir parādījies internets, kgan pie tā neesamības jau pieradu.. šodien iegādājos arī spilvenu un segu. so no more Spartan style nights for me. Un ir parādījušies brīvdienu plāni, kas iekļauj 2 vai pat 3 braucienus uz citām pilsētām.
šodien pat noprezentēju savu gadījumu visu gudro vācu dakteru priekšā.. survived that too. bet 3 more to go. un tas tomēr ir stresiņš pieņemt pacientus, ievākt anamnēzi, veikt vispārējo izmeklēšanu un protokolet visu datorprogrammā, kad mans vārdu krājums vācu propedeitikā ir pretty shabby un es saprotu tikai pusi no tā, ko saimnieki tāsta savās divainajās giga ātrajās vācu izloksnēs :D
ziemlich anstrengend.. atliek cerēt, ka pēc pāris nedēļām viss būs ok.
šonedēļ jālepojas ar to, ka esmu pamanījusies neapmaldīties klīnikā :D |
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| darling, you should really go out more |
[Jun. 4th, 2016|07:47 pm] |
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| | girls [tv show] | ] |
So a very funny thing happened.
There I was having a perfectly nice conversation with a handsome male specimen at a book yard sale, where I exchanged my old books for some new ones.. Among my old ones were some architecture books, that were just dusting on the shelves, but where to beautiful and pricey just to through away, so after my attempt to decluster my life they just ended up in a pile on the floor for last couple of months.
Anyway - they started a conversation about how the architecture didn't work out for me and for a slight change in a career path took change.. blah blah blah.. words after word. and then he asks: "So what are you in Latvia for? Studies?"
And I'm like [Whut?? in my head]: Duh, I'm from here.
And then he says with a smile: "Tad jau mēs mierīgi varam runāt latviski." (plus he complimented my pronunciation. blushing. he had no suspicions about my origin, and to be honest neither did I about his) |
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[May. 31st, 2016|07:16 pm] |
SOFIJA!! SAŅEMIES!!
Pietiek lasīt grāmatas un skatīties seriālus!!
Raksti savu prakses dienasgrāmatu, vnlg kā, vnlg cik.. raksti tikai trešdaļu no pacientiem, just do it...
tas ir uz ieskaitīts.. bez atzīmes.. just write.
i know summer is your time. and you like nothing more kā aizskrituļot līdz Daugavai un izbaudīt sauli uz savas ādas. bet summer is not going anywhere. [hopefully, protams, visticamāk līdz ar sesiju beigsies arī siltums un saule, saksies lietus un sniegs :D]
don't listen to yourself. be above that. |
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| reality strikes again |
[May. 23rd, 2016|07:34 pm] |
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Nu kā? Kā var mācīties kkādas infekcijas - kad kaķēniem galvas pārkož suņi, salaužot žokļus.. kad kaķenes izlido no 9. stāva.. kad jorkšīras terjeram ir vnk humongous perianālā trūce.. |
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| bet varbūt tomēr? |
[Apr. 25th, 2016|10:08 pm] |
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nez, par ko tas liecina, ka tā vietā, lai skatītos GOT jauno sezonu, kuru tik ļoti gaidīju, es labāk eju gulēt un klausos grāmatu, jo ir taču jau 22:00 |
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| STOP the Denial |
[Mar. 21st, 2016|11:21 pm] |
you, my friend, should have gone to that funeral. |
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[Mar. 20th, 2016|11:30 am] |
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| | spotify - reklāma | ] |
one of those days - kad vienpadsmitos no rīta jau esi pārdozējis kafiju.. |
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| rules |
[Mar. 13th, 2016|12:36 am] |
- Rets teica: "Don't drink alone, Scarlett. People always find it out and it ruins the reputation. And besides, it's a bad business, this drinking alone."
- Bet acīmredzot citiem cilvēkiem Reta viedoklis nerūp tik ļoti kā Tev, Sofij.
P.S. This un arī GWTW pieminēšana prof-ētikas nodarbībā, might just make me read that book for the 18th time [cerams, ka pēc referāta nodošanas] |
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| nepareizā diena |
[Mar. 10th, 2016|10:44 pm] |
Cukurfabrikas stacijas kasē pateicu: "Labdien! Cukurfabrika, lūdzu!" un iedevu 2 eiro.
Tad nesapratu, kāpēc kasiere uz mani dīvaini skatās un nekas nenotiek.. |
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| īsta saruna |
[Mar. 8th, 2016|10:55 pm] |
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| | GA from another room | ] |
- "No melnajiem padebešiem krīt baltas kokaīna pārslas, un pārsedz pasauli kā cukurvates palags.." Hahahaha.. Trakonams jau sen mani gaida. Lai pagaida vēl.. Hahahaha.. Gabals nenokritīs..
- I'll just pretend it's the cocaine talking. |
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| Things I have to say pusčetros no rīta |
[Feb. 19th, 2016|03:33 am] |
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| | sleepy | ] |
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| | no music, LUTHER | ] |
Tie slimie serial killer and crazy obsessed detective kinda seriāli ir forši. I've been missing this sick entertainment in my life. Feels good having the vibe back.
My soul is definitely not orange.
I've gone soft. And lazy.
Sāk šķist, ka mani garastāvokļi iet uz apli. Vientulībai, vīriešu nīšanasi, sevis nievāšanai, ambīcijām, melnajai bedrei, pašnāvnieciskām nosliecēm, fitnessatkarībai, pasaules bezjēdzībai u.c. ir tāda sava iekšējā rotācijas prakse manī, kura, ļoti iespējams, saskan ar kkādām mēness fāzēm, should probably check that.
- Why should she call you? Why don't you call her?
- I don't know what to say to her.
- And you're dying to talk to her.
- I miss her terribly.
- You don't have to. (by the way - it is getting old - you thinking of her and not being a good enough friend at 3 a.m.)
- Furthermore - she's the only person you do trust, and she knows and appreciates it, though sometimes she does fall into dark pits of self-flagellation with thoughts of being unworthy.. that's her darkness.. and she's probably dying to talk to you too. So that's why you make such great uncommunicative friends.
It's weird and uncomfortable to see your doodles on other people's bodies, especially, when you don't neither like nor know these people. And you didn't draw that sketch for them. |
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