Struggling. What else is new?
When I say that I hate people, the worst thing you can do is point out that not all people are bad. Am I generalizing when I say what I say, yes! Of course there are good people out there, somewhere, clearly hiding from me. For every decent person there is a shitload of assholes. Whenever I decide to let my guard down a bit and let someone in, 99,9% of the time they will prove that they are worthless pieces of shit. I am not talking about dating or finding a soul mate or any of that to be precise. I am talking generally of neighbors, colleagues, random people you meet on the street. And by letting in, I mean having a decent "life has put us in close proximity, why not try to be friendly and decent to each other" kind of thing. And again, I don't mean being friends, just finding a way to coexist and not hate each others guts. Why the hell is that so hard? Why do people have to be little bitches with no soul or common decency? It amazes me how fucked up communication between people has become.
One last bit. However strained my relationship with my family can be at times, if you ever come for them, be sure that I will rip your throat out.
Thanks for coming to my TED talk.

Took off two of the bird feeders today. The one on my window sill was mostly used by pigeons and they were getting raucous lately. It was different in the winter, back then it was frequented by sparrows and both blue and great tits, some starlings and later maybe up to four pigeons. Now there is a whole flock of pigeons. I like them, but it just seemed to get out of hand.
I also took down the bigger feeder from the lilac bush. They still have a regular, smaller size bird house/feeder for seeds and such and two feeders for fat balls. I have no idea what is up this spring, but they eat like they are preparing for the apocalypse. Maybe it's just the nesting season and I have not payed enough attention other years.
For the very first time this year I went out without a jacket and wearing sandals instead of sneakers. It was just to pick up my parcels, maybe a 10 min walk, but it felt great. The wind is crisp but not cold and the weather is just warm enough. As I don't handle hot weather very well, this is the perfect time for me.