This indeed is a big one. Es nezinu kaa tev, bet man visu laiku, shkjiet, ka man ir izmisiigi jaaaizstav kaut kaada sava buutiiba, maybe it's an ego thing. Bet ir taada, sajuuta, ka liidz ko tu novirziisies no taadas integrity saviem patterns, tad tu kljuusi tukshs un nekaads, just an empty object, as if you'd have to start over again and nothing before counted. Taapeec arii man biezhi shkjiet, ka interakcija ar cilveekiem, ja pasham nav izveidots speeciigs ego, var buut ljoti intrusive and attaches lots that one is not, or does not want to be.
So jaa, es laikam nezinu, kaa ir pareizaak, uz cilveeku skatiities kaa uz vinja pagaatnes kopumu, vai vinja tagadni, un vai potenciaals skaitaas kaa personiibas sastaavdalja. Es tev piekriitu, ka ir patterns, bet it's a slightly unpleasant thought, that all there is is patterns.. Un paterns are not constant either.