9/21/16 08:47 pm Quote: “If you set your goals ridiculously high and it’s a failure, you will fail above everyone else’s success.” Weekly challenge: Getting healthy; Focus at task at hand I am grateful for my will to grow and ask difficult questions; every experience that has helped me to become stronger person; knowing the feeling of when it is right and I still can't grok how someone could give it up I am good will hunting; lovely; hot mess Amazing things that happened today - laughing at work about silly things and talking psychology How could I have made today better? Finding a better way of sweating the small stuff than exhausting myself with guilt and thoughts of imperfection. |
Andromeda
Life long story
9/20/16 09:41 pm "I’ve found that everybody has an Achilles’ heel when it comes to asking. I know a lot of people who can boldly ask for a raise, but they can’t ask for a hug. And I know a lot of people with the opposite problem." I will not let one misstep to ruin my day. I accept it, yes. It was wrong. But all in all I did good. Kept eye on the ball. Now, rinse and repeat. Have to stop taking it all so serious. The reality is, they don't know anything about me. Real me.
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9/19/16 10:24 pmMana ome bija viens no stiprākajiem cilvēkiem, kādus es zinu. Viņa man reiz stāstīja, ka viņu jaunībā bija iesaukuši par Bālo grāfieni viņas baltās ādas dēļ. Man patiesībā ir daudz no omes. Ausis, potītes un āda. Un man gribētos cerēt, ka arī viņas stiprums. Ne tikai fiziskais, kā jau zemniekiem, bet gara stiprums. Cīņas spars par spīti visām dzīves likstām un zaudējumiem. Ak, un viņa bija tik vieda un viņai reizēm bija bail pateikt lietas, jo tad tās parasti piepildījās.Ome, es ceru kļūt vēl līdzīgāka tev! Pat ja man par to nav ne jausmas. |
9/19/16 07:54 pm
Quote: "Anything worth doing is worth doing slowly.” Weekly challenge: Get healthy; Focus at task at hand I am greatful for little moments of happiness; people who want to understand; for my fear that drives me I am smart; humble and chuckling away Amazing thing that happened today - my cough is better and no pains in the back How could I have made today better? Focus better. |
9/18/16 08:55 pm
Book: Ignore Everybody: and 39 Other Keys to Creativity by Hugh MacLeod |
9/17/16 01:35 am Quote: “Anger is often what pain looks like when it shows itself in public." Weekly challenge: Smiling; Getting healthy I am grateful for my ability to see through bullshit; knowing love; Universe I am beautiful; worthy of love; awake Amazing thing that happened today - doctor allowed me go back to work How could I have made today better? Not losing my calm. |
9/15/16 05:02 pm Quote:“Genius is only a superior power of seeing.” Weekly challenge: Smiling; Getting healthy I am grateful for my body; my gifts of God; my mom I am sick as a dog, but patient; loving; hopefully good sister Amazing thing that happened today - finished reading the book How could I have made today better? I know sugar is bad, but any kind of candy would make me happy for five minutes and that is all I need to make this day better. Silly. Very silly indeed. I know. And maybe new book to read. And maybe seeing Blindspot's newest episode. |
9/14/16 07:51 pm Quote:“The existential vacuum manifests itself mainly in the state of boredom.” Weekly challenge: Smiling and getting healthy? I am grateful for my strange mind; my great space ship called Earth; my rich childhood I am cute and cuddly; a little bit sad; extremely sensitive and exhausted Amazing thing that happened today - walk home from doctors How could I have made today better? Have a little bit more energy and someone who could distract my attention from stupid thoughts. |
9/14/16 11:04 am - Acts of Love by Talulah Riley ‘I thought that as long as I was with him, as long as I could keep him, earn him, be worthy of him – trick him into feeling something for me! – nothing else mattered. I compromised myself and my ideals in order to be with him. Over and over again I tried to be someone I wasn’t, just to keep up with him. And then he left me. And it seemed so wrong, because I had given everything, and he … It meant nothing to him. My soul was worthless to him, but important to me, and yet I had given it away so easily, and ultimately all for nothing …’ *** ‘It was an odd moment for Bernadette, who was conscious of some change in herself. It was, unfortunately, not the provenance of some higher sensibility, a transformation towards a more stoic way of being, but something far more commonplace. Thoughts of Radley came unbidden at every moment: the feel of his mouth on hers, the luxury of his gentle arms encircling her body. She was not dreaming only of sensation, because now her emotions were more than they had been. She was no longer lecherous, but left more than anything desiring his good opinion. Suddenly she wanted his beliefs as her own, his good sense to guide her; she craved his respect, and wanted to be worthy of his friendship.’
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9/13/16 04:31 pm Quote: "Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much." Weekly challenge: Smiling I am grateful for my family; that I can provide for myself and do side projects for my loved ones; that I know how it is to be poor I am funny; a mess; stronger than you might think 3 Amazing things that happened today: No more temperature; Good sleep finally; Not feeling guilty for taking a sick leave How could I have made today better? Have a little bit more structure. |
9/13/16 01:28 am No matter what, stay true to who you are. Being home, really home has been weird. Good weird. Like stepping in part of my world that's been forgotten. All the silly things I used to write, paint, draw and make. Everything still there, just covered in dust. I know, I can go back. |
9/11/16 01:38 pmPēc tādas nedēļas jau nav gluži brīnums, ka tāds nieka brāļa vīruss ir arī man pieķēries. Eh. |
9/8/16 09:11 pm This week is taking it's toll on me. Not sure if I'm building my strengths or poking my weak spots with a sharp stick over and over again. Feel so exhausted.
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9/8/16 08:55 pmCherry Can be very sweet when she needs a friend But it's only A mask that she wears so she can pretend And I can't keep running All of the time No I can't keep running All of the time
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9/7/16 08:12 pm Viss ir labi, kamēr sanāk koncentrēties uz sevi. Tiklīdz sanāk domāt par cilvēkiem, tā parādās sāpes, vilšanās, sevis noniecināšana un citas muļķības. Nē, es nemaz vēl neesmu gatava būt starp cilvēkiem. Pat tie, kuriem varētu it kā uzticēties, ir neprogozējami radījumi.
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9/6/16 07:49 pm Two down, three more to go. Into the battle. Probably almost every single person at work thinks that I must be doing bad if I volunteer for whole week for extra training. I don't really care for them. For most of them. Not all. I will excel and hone my skills, and beat my weaknesses. Wake up. Kick ass. Repeat.
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9/6/16 12:46 amThere are so many underlying causes for my isolation from people I don't even know where to begin. Would it be that I grew up with only mom, sick sister, constant fighting around, being poor, being laughed at, not understood even by friends, losing trust in people, being betrayed, being used, being sad and finally just purely hiding away, because of everything else.But hey, have a little bit of hope? Right? |
9/5/16 11:47 pmRunway bride (movie) and Acts of Love (book) is not a good combination. Too much."Look, I guarantee there'll be tough times. I guarantee that at some point, one or both of us is gonna want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know, in my heart, you're the only one for me." |
9/3/16 11:36 pmŠķiet smieklīgi tādi salidojumi no vidusskolas, kur lielākā daļa biedrīšu atmiņā iespiedušies kā iedomīgi murmuļi. Nemaz nekārojas redzēt. Un tie labie? Kur tad viņi ir bijuši manā dzīvē? Nekur. |
8/31/16 10:17 pm Summer'16 Building raised bed garden Gardening Muse concert From crying every day to being content Getting good results at work Not feeling sad for not having people in my life Getting edge back, feeling more like myself Slowly but surely getting confidence back Image change Work on progress..
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