es esmu ljoti dusmiiga uz sevi jau vairaakas dienas.
apjukusi un sastingusi
ja es agrak sev riebos, tad tagad es sev riebjos 10x vairaak
6dien bijaam uz juuru. Viss ko es no juuras veeleejos, bija to redzeet. bet tagad es apsveru iespeeju braukt pa nakti un peldeeties. pa dienu ir paaraak daudz cilveeku apkaart. Nee nu itkaa jau es vinjus pat neieveerotu, ja vien vinju nebuutu TIK daudz. kur man bij praats veel vakaraa ar draudzeni uz vecriigu iet... Bija tik daudz cilveeku, ka speej tikai sveicinaaties un parunaaties ar visiem pazinjaam, ko pa celjam nokjer. +veel es satiku tipa savu puisi. laikam driiz vinjsh man vairs NEBUUS puisis, jo ar katru dienu shitaas muusu "attieciibas" kljuust aizvien nejeedziigaakas. Galu galaa es vairaakas stundas pavadiiju seezhot uz ielas un stulbi jautrojoties ar pazinju sphynx kursh peec tam /maita/ aizgaaja uz STURM :(
7dien es gaaju pastaigaaties, lai nogurums paliidzeetu man piemirst par manu naidu. Vieniigaa vieta vecriigaa kur nebija cilveku bija jau aarpus vecriiigas tb es kaadu stundu notuseejos viena uz AB dambja. principaa es priecaatos ja vecriigu nozhogotu un izveidotu tur manu pastaigu zonu. lai kaa man ari nebuutu PO uz apkaartesoshajiem, man urlas, aarzemnieki un bomzhi jau saak krist uz nerviem. Tikko dabuuju pirmo ierakstu savaa studiju graamatinjaa. veeleejos rakstiit pasniedzeejam mailu, bet attapos, ka aizmirsu kaada jam ir emial adrese :D

"In the beginning, God created the earth, and looked upon it in His cosmic loneliness.
and God said, "let Us make living creatures out of mud, so the mud can see what We have done" And God created every living creature that now moveth, and one was man. Mud as man alone could speak. God leaned close as mud as man sat up, looked around and spoke. Man blinked. "what is the purpose of all this?" he asked politely.
"everything must have a purpose?" asked God
"certainly!" said man
"then I leave it to you to think of one for all this" said God.
and then He went away"

(c) K. Vonneguuts

daudzi man saka, es neklausoties IISTo noise. KURSH ir tas IISTAIS?? :) [ + naiva grimase]

I woke the same as any other day
Except a voice was in my head
It said seize the day, pull the trigger
Drop the blade, and watch the rolling heads

The day I tried to live
I stole a thousand beggar's change
And gave it to the rich

The day I tried to win
I dangled from the power lines
And let the martyrs stretch
Singing

One more time around might do it
One more time around might make it
One more time around might do it
One more time around
The day I tried to live

Words you say never seem
To live up to the ones inside your head
The lives we make never seem
To ever get us anywhere but dead

The day I tried to live
I wallowed in the blood and mud with
All the other pigs

I woke the same as any other day you know
I should have stayed in bed

The day I tried to win
I wallowed in the blood and mud with
All the other pigs

And I learned that I was a liar
Just like you

zinu shito debiilo sajuutu no galvas
tas viss nekad nenotiek citaadaak
un man tas riebjas
nenormaali riebjas
hah... kursh teica, ka iemiileeshanas paliidz pret dziives apnikumu un garlaiciibu?
pat saapes jau ir rutiina

"you're so fckn special
I wish I was special..
But I'm a creap... "

laikam buus jaazuud kaut kur sturii laiziit reetas, kuru veel nau, bet gan jau buus... kameer veel taadas mazinjas utt... u nou, cilveekiem jau nepatiik taadi kas nau iipashi laimiigi utt... respeksteesim jamo veelmes un nozudiisim, jo esmu paaraak paarnjemta ar savaam DEBIILAJAAM skumjaam, lai normaali kontakteetos ar cilveekiem, kuri man patiik.

man vajag tikai muuziku + veel kaadu [tikai es seu taa riebjos ka nespeetu vinjam pat aciis paskatiities, ja vispaar veel kaadreiz satiktu]
un tad man vairs neko nevajdzeet. principaa esmu bez 5min laimiiga. HA!

interesanti liidz kaadai pakaapei iespeejam sev riebties? es tuvojos gaismas aatrumam

viss. raudu. chau

karoche zb.. nau man vairs puisha. debiilsmz tas viss ir... un neljaushu es seu vairs iemiileeties. tas ir pilniigs sviests. nu i po kas ar mani taalak notiek.. neesmu taa veerta, lai mani miileetu..