It's official. Sliktākā diena sliktāko dienu vēsturē. Īsumā:

1. I have a thing for rock-ish surfaces.

2. Es, Madara Salmane, liekot roku uz sirds, visu šo liecinieku virtuālajā klātbūtnē apsolos turpmākos pāris gadus [vismaz] publiskās vietās nedzert vairāk kā divus kokteiļus, šotus, vīna glāzes, etc. [Jo rezultāts pilnīgi noteikti neattaisno līdzekļus.]

3. It's my mom's 50th birthday and her father's day of passing away.

Tags: neatceries
Current Mood: -
Current Music: -

I just love to go to a test knowing I don't know a thing [once again: a grave understatement].
[!@#$@@#%$%!!!]
Especially an oral one. Especially in French.
Followed by grammar.
Wish me a fast world's end. Preferably in the next 3 hours.

Tags: neatceries
Current Mood: like screamin'
Current Music: !@!@#

[And that's an understatement, to say the least.]
It's just Tuesday and I already love this week.
Yesterday I spent lying on my back in all places possible due to my incredible lack of balance. In short: slippery slopes and huge gravel stones love me.
Today morning I was unable to go to German or otherwise physically move myself and afterwards I received an inspiring e-mail that one of my students can't find motivation to continue to learn English and therefore quits. Vīhā.
Just now my curtain rail fell off. If I had a camera, I would take a nice picture and document the failure of my week ['life' is a little too soon to say].

It's like.. I want to scream 'Seriously?!' and '!$#@%$#^$%?!' at the top of my lungs.
BUT I FREAKIN' CAN'T!!!

#Sings# It's the most wonderful time of the year..
[Better don't hold one's breath.]

Tags: neatceries
Current Mood: pīčī
Current Music: -

As previously predicted - just hit rock-bottom.

Tags: neatceries
Current Mood: shaky
Current Music: The Beatles - Strawberry fields

> 48 hours (~60)

** 2.5 for sleep, rest - insanity.

Let's look at the term.

• "A deranged state of the mind usually occurring as a specific disorder [tell me about it]"
• "Such unsoundness of mind or lack of understanding as prevents one from having the mental capacity required by law to enter into a particular relationship [with particular states of mind], status, or transaction or as removes one from criminal or civil responsibility [soothing]"
• "Something utterly foolish or unreasonable"
• "Insanity destroys reason, but not wit [even better!!]"
• "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results"

I'll stick to all of them. And parts of them. But all in all: "I can't explain what it's like to go crazy or to be crazy. Being crazy is just being myself."

** Ruļļi uz saspraužamajām adatām un kancelejas piederumi matos.
** In the process of seeming withdrawl.

Tags: insomnia, neatceries
Current Mood: freaky
Current Music: Radiohead

I just hate my life SO much at the moment.
Klaviatūra kļūst ar katru stundu arvien jautrāka.
Es ienīstu visu apkārtējo pasauli, kas man neļauj normāli mācīties [which basically means myself].
Mums solās būt jautra pastaiga. Lai gan - vismaz ir legitimate reason not to do dishes --> no hot water. Or any water at all for that matter. Kas nozīmē arī no hair-washing.
Un. Es ļoti ceru, ka notiks brīnums un tā sasodītā vētra būs sagāzusi uz sliedēm un vadiem tik daudz koku, ka es netikšu uz skolu [lasi: fr-v giga testu].

Tags: atskaite, neatceries
Current Mood: head - wall
Current Music: Mashups galvā

I suck at French. Plainly suck my ass off!
I clearly suck at organising my week and its end.
I suck at getting up in time and getting anywhere for that matter.
I suck at holding the right things to myself and saying out loud the ones needed to be said.
All in all - I suck at life.

"Remember, the light at the end of the tunnel may be you." /Aerosmith/
Yes. And I'm an oncoming dragon.
Good night!

Tags: atskaite, neatceries
Current Mood: sucks
Current Music: LP

Personīgā pieredze:
Ja jūsu organisms jums ļauj smēķēt un dzert kafiju - dariet to. Tas pats organisms jums noteikti personīgi paziņos, kad pietiek. (Es tīri fiziski vairs nespēju ne vienu, ne otru. Un tas laikam sāk dot pa nerviem.)

Nedēļas atklāsme:
Un tad es pārnāku mājās un saprotu.. dienas sliktākā daļa tikai sākas.

Tags: atskaite, neatceries
Current Mood: sucks
Current Music: Bruno Mars

Jo nav ne manis, kas sadzirdētu, ne kāda cita. Visās šī vārda nozīmēs.

No/pēc šodienas sanāktu ideāla suicide note:
Jā, arī par šo es jūtos un esmu vainīga, bet jā, es esmu Tik stūrgalvīga, lai tas neko nemainītu.

Cheers!
[Žēl, ka es šorīt neredzēju varavīksni.]

Tags: neatceries
Current Mood: alone
Current Music: Muse/Mežs/Hugo

Nepietiek, ka mana istaba nekad tā pa īstam nav bijusi mana un daļa tās man vnm ir bijusi jādala ar pie datora sēdošajiem. Kopš septembra arī mans krēsls ir nonācis koplietošanā, cause we are one short. Un tagad es varu oficiāli paziņot, ka man dziļi nepatīk dalīt savu datoru ar visiem pārējiem šīs mājas iemītniekiem and that's an understatement. Viens regulāri aizver manas speciāli atvērtās interneta lapas, viens pašrocīgi iet ārā no mana skaipa un man nākas zīlēt, kad tas notiks nākamreiz, cits saglabā savus personīgos failus visdažādākajās vietās.. un tā es varētu turpināt..

Tags: atskaite, neatceries
Current Mood: pissed
Current Music: beidzot klusums šajā telpā

[Let this one go. Everything IS going to be fine.]

Tags: neatceries
Current Mood: konfjūziš
Current Music: somewhere only we know

I've thought about your bright ideas put into your books.. In the last few days particulary about this one [one of my all time favourites]: And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it. And I have to admit that if before I just disagreed with it, now I'm quite convinced that when you really want something, all the universe conspires in putting as many obsticles in your way as possible. And as countless, unfathomable and unsurpassable as universally unimaginable.

I'm sorry if I have in any way offended you or any of your fans.. Although, actually.. I'm not sorry at all. Not about this.

 

Best wishes,
Girl who hates your freakin' too optimistic guts at the moment.

Tags: atskaite, neatceries
Current Mood: I don't know either
Current Music: Scotty doesn't know

Ir 23. decembra vakars. Ārā ir skaista ziema, kas sola tikpat skaistus svētkus. Siltus jums šī gada Ziemassvētkus un izbaudiet viņus no sirds! Jo, par spīti cerībām un mēģinājumiem visu savest kārtībā, man šie svētki šogad ir atcelti.

Tags: neatceries

I was kindly given my chance [most probably the last one], but I totally blew it.

Tags: neatceries
Current Mood: regretful
Current Music: smth repeating in my head

Piedod, Sofij, bet tu nebūsi mans ezera/meža ugunskura upuris. Man šai lomai jau ir noskatīts kāds cits. Sākumā man likās, ka tā būs mana sīkā māsa, bet šodien es sapratu, ka neviens mani nemāk nokaitināt Tik ļoti kā Dita. nu vnk TIK ĻOTI. Un viņa var mani uzskatīt par, citēju, "duru", jo es nenovaldījos un uztaisīju viņai sarkanus pleķus uz rokas, kurus viņa dēvē par zilumiem. Bet dzīve nav tik vienkārša kā pāris tikko pateikti teikumi vai izdarītas lietas. Tas iestiepjas garāk. Tā nav tikai par mirkļa iespaidiem. Tas ir sarežģītāk. Vismaz manējā. Bet tāpēc laikam ārstēties eju es, nevis viņi.

Tags: atskaite, neatceries
Current Mood: ļoti dusmīga
Current Music: garas elpas