"I'm fine."

Current Mood: ex-
Current Music: time ticking

Vakar no rīta mēs ar Ditu nolaidām balonu no tilta un priecājāmies par 'baloniņa pašnāvību'.
Es gribētu būt tas baloniņš.

1. I can't watch it anymore. All that Chuck-related-stuff is getting under my skin. Today it was near-tears. I'm sure it won't be long before I'm trying to stay afloat.

2. Some men are islands. Maybe they choose to be. [Maybe not, but objectively I would have to say they do.] Maybe this is the reason for the first point.

3. I'm in front rows of a one man show and it doesn't seem to have a close [or happy] ending. It's just a matter of time before I have a mental breakdown of my own or I start spending most of my time in woods.

[At least when I had problems, I didn't eat everything I got my hands on one day and yell I didn't eat anything another. And I admitted I needed help. Not now though.]

 

Tags: atskaite, series
Current Mood: skumīgs/alone
Current Music: ziņas, famīlijs otrā istabā

Nezinu, ko tas īsti liecina par mani. Vai nu to, ka es līdz šim neesmu mācījusies nemaz, vai arī esmu mācījusies pārsteidzoši laicīgi.
Laikam jau pa bišķītim no abiem. Esmu mācījusies un Tik Ļoti uz pēdējo brīdi atlikusi neesmu. Bet - vēl arī nav bijis tik daudz uzdots. [Un par franču valodu vien domājot man rokas trīc un piemetas sirdsklapes. Gluži kā vecajos labajos laikos ar vācu valodu. :P ]

Stpc - tikko kkad lasīju rakstu nu gluži vai par mani. Par prokastinatoriem or smth. Kā atlikt uz pēdējo brīdi. Izrādās, 20% pasaules iedzīvotāju ir hroniski pro-[fiņi/idiņi]. Nezi' vai nav kāds tests, kas mani varētu oficiāli tajā skaitā ierindot..

Tags: skola
Current Mood: kaut-rīt-būtu-2diena
Current Music: dead silence

Un es šodien mežā salasīju lillā āboliņu un apēdu piecas meža zemenes.

Tags: atskaite
Current Mood: labs
Current Music: Linkin Park

.. I'm a total sucker when it comes to Chuck. Especially after these new episodes. And there is nothing I can do about it. Except feeling So Sorry for him and not [not seriously] wanting to watch further.

[+ He now has a dog he named Monkey. How freakin' adorable is that? Chuck.. and a Dog.]

Tags: series
Current Mood: jumpy
Current Music: smth on TV

Being in self-destructive emotional spell can be quite.. educational, I guess one could say.

First, I don't think I've ever before had swollen eyelids. And it's definitely been a Long time since I last had such a sore eyes.
Second, I finally [finally!] watched a decent movie which has been on my computer for ages. Dogville. Freakin' 3 hours. But I [enjoyed every moment of it doesn't seem an appropriate word for this movie.. let's just say -->] couldn't stop watching/couldn't pull myself away from it till the very end. One of the best I've seen lately. Maybe just one of the best I've seen, period.

Have a tight night.

Tags: atskaite
Current Mood: m&m

Jo nav ne manis, kas sadzirdētu, ne kāda cita. Visās šī vārda nozīmēs.

No/pēc šodienas sanāktu ideāla suicide note:
Jā, arī par šo es jūtos un esmu vainīga, bet jā, es esmu Tik stūrgalvīga, lai tas neko nemainītu.

Cheers!
[Žēl, ka es šorīt neredzēju varavīksni.]

Tags: neatceries
Current Mood: alone
Current Music: Muse/Mežs/Hugo

Nakts - vnk drausmīga. Pamostos 3:40, pēc gulētām divām stundām, ar domu, ka jāceļas un jāiet kko darīt. Pš. Un tad tā katras 20 minūtes līdz 6:20, kad arī bija jāceļas.

Un skriešana no rītiem galīgi nekam neder. Tāda sajūta, ka varētu mierīgi galus atdot.

Tags: atskaite, miegs
Current Mood: vēl nav
Current Music: nav

Nepietiek, ka mana istaba nekad tā pa īstam nav bijusi mana un daļa tās man vnm ir bijusi jādala ar pie datora sēdošajiem. Kopš septembra arī mans krēsls ir nonācis koplietošanā, cause we are one short. Un tagad es varu oficiāli paziņot, ka man dziļi nepatīk dalīt savu datoru ar visiem pārējiem šīs mājas iemītniekiem and that's an understatement. Viens regulāri aizver manas speciāli atvērtās interneta lapas, viens pašrocīgi iet ārā no mana skaipa un man nākas zīlēt, kad tas notiks nākamreiz, cits saglabā savus personīgos failus visdažādākajās vietās.. un tā es varētu turpināt..

Tags: atskaite, neatceries
Current Mood: pissed
Current Music: beidzot klusums šajā telpā

Un lai gan dažreiz ir ļoti žēl, ka nevaram, pēdējās pāris dienās es par to no visas sirds pateicos visiem augstajiem un zemajiem spēkiem.

[Reminder to myself - get a grip, dear!! Or you'll lose the one you have completely.]

Lūdzu padalīties ar savām idejām par veidiem kā atjaunot enerģiju. [Visus pilnvērtīga miega ieteikumus paturēt pie sevis.]

Tags: atskaite
Current Mood: +/-
Current Music: -

I still need sleep and still hate it.
I still love autumn and walking.
I still need to learn more and keep to my schedule.
I'm still alone even at my own home.
I still have inherited my unbelievably optimistic view of world and things in it. Not life though.

Tags: atskaite
Current Mood: slinks
Current Music: Coldplay

Today I got reminded why I don't like to sleep anymore and why I do only once/twice a week. I Hate seeing all those things I keep seeing when I close my eyes for more than six hours a few nights in a row.
[I don't have a sleeping disorder. It's a concious choice.]

Tags: miegs
Current Mood: bit angry at myself
Current Music: Radiohead

Just made my philosophical day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xBPFeHa0N2s&feature=related
Laughed my ass off. :D

Tags: :d, atskaite
Current Mood: ++
Current Music: youtube

[Let this one go. Everything IS going to be fine.]

Tags: neatceries
Current Mood: konfjūziš
Current Music: somewhere only we know