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Jul. 1st, 2005 @ 12:57 am *********
Current Mood: nostalgic
Current Music: :::Cold_-_Rain_Song:::

Bija jauki akal tefi shovakar satikt! Laiks iet, tachu ideaali shkjiet paliek, kaut gan izskatiijies bik noaudzis, tachu tas pac vien.., tas pac ideaalais dzheks kaads buusi man arvien - neviens nespees tef liidzinaaties, manu miiljo bundziniek, heh =)) Kkaada nostaljgjija, tachu labaa zinjaa - prieks atcereeties vecos laikus, ne skumiigi, ne saapiigi, vien prieks, ka taadi ir bijushi un prieks, ka man vienmeer kkas paliks no tevis n zec oll =))
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Jun. 28th, 2005 @ 02:24 am ***
Current Mood: died
Current Music: :::Him_-_The Funeral Of Hearts

Un atkal tu taa..
Cik reizes gan es
Teikusi tev neesmu -
Liecies mieraa, bet tu..
Un tagad ir labaak?
Tas vienkaarshi ir nezheeliigi
Un kaa tu pret mani -
Taa es pret tevi!
Es tevi.. izniideeshu..
Nee, labaak pametiishu
Pametiishu vienu pashu
Kaa tikko dzimushu ziidaini
Un tu buusi viena pati
Cik viena esmu es
Un tu nespeesi izdziivot
Taapat kaa es bez tevis
Mees buusim kaa maate ar beernu
Kuri shkjirti kopsh dzimshanas
Bet taa buus labaak -
Tici man, jo..
Kaa tu pret mani -
Taa es pret tevi -
Mana muljkja sirds..
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Jun. 27th, 2005 @ 01:27 am *********
Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: Flaw - Best I Am

Ak taa.. nu man prieks par tefi! Man prieks par jums!
Ak, tu arii? Nee nu, forshi! Man tieshaam liels prieks par tefi un par jums!
Es tak tef teicu, ka taa buus - apsveicu! Tu to sen biji pelniijis (-usi). Man prieks par jums!
Neenu..tas tieshaam ir skaisti, ka cilveekam, kursh tef ir ljoti miiljsh, kuru tu esi atbalstiijis kaa speejis, un kursh tefi arii naf atstaajis novaartaa, atrod to otru cilveecinju, kuru ir mekleejis. Skaisti jau skan - mees esam kopaa.. Un tad tu vari priecaaties liidzi un saprast, ka pasaulee arii kkur pastaav taisniiba, ka cilveeki tomeer viens otru atrod, lai cik tas neiespeejami pasham arii liktos..
Cik reizes no sirds neesmu teikusi - man prieks par tefi, man prieks par jums etc.., bet kad es vienreiz dzirdeeshu shos vaardus adreseetus man, kad beidzot man varees teikt - man prieks, ka esat kopaa.. vai tieshaam mani sagaida statuss - vecmeita? brr..gh `n` brr.. what`s wrong with me?
Shodien 1.x izjutu kaa tas ir, kad jaaatstaaj maajas..tik ljoti gribeejaas tikt prom no maajaam, no visiem un no apkaartnes, bet tad, kad tas tieshaam pienaak..taa sajuuta, ka dodies taalumaa - viens pac un atstaaj visu un visus..:/ vai tieshaam taas jau ir atvadas no maajaam? :/
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Jun. 26th, 2005 @ 02:50 am Cannonball
Current Music: :::Damien Rice_-_Cannonball:::

there’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
there’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
it’s still a little hard to say what's going on

there’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness
there’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed
you step a little closer each day
that i can’t say what's going on

stones taught me to fly
love taught me to lie
life, it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball

there’s still a little bit of your song in my ear
there’s still a little bit of your words i long to hear
you step a little closer to me
so close that i can't see what's going on

stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to lie
life taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannon..
stones taught me to fly
love taught me to cry
so come on courage
teach me to be shy
'cause it's not hard to fall
and i don't wanna scare her(him)
it's not hard to fall
and i don't wanna lose
it's not hard to grow
when you know that you just don't know..
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Jun. 21st, 2005 @ 03:38 am *********
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: :::Gain Fast_-_Kliedz:::

Veel tikai 2 naktis un buushu piebeiguse 3.kursu..- no way.
Un tad naak Jaanji..=DD Jaanji? Neenu, shogad shamie solaas buut izcili - seedeeshu viena pate tukshaa dziivoklii un blenziishu Limuziinu jaanjunakts kraasaa..izcili - I just love my life! ;]
Naak smiekli - smejies cik gribi, bet man gan kkaa par to smiekli nenaak :P
Zheel? pss - a vot zheelastiiba man tieshaam naf vajadziiga..:|
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Jun. 19th, 2005 @ 04:43 pm ja manis nebuutu..
Current Music: Seether - Love Her

Diez kaa buutu tad, ja manis peekshnji vairs nebuutu? vai kaads maz to ieveerotu? nebuutu ne atbildes uz telefona zvaniem, msg, veestuleem, meiliem..bet vai kaads tos maz gaida? tuksh skolas sols, tuksha istaba, iztruukums 1.majos altos - so what? kaada tam visam ir veertiiba? nekaada..visi vaardi, smaidi, soliijumi, etc i vien tukshums, kam nav nekaadas veertiibas. labais atnaakshot atpakalj 100 kaartiigi =DD kursh ko taadu maz i izdomaajis? Ne labiem darbiem, vaardiem, miiljumam, sirniibai nav nekaadas noziimes - NEKAADAS!!! Visi tiecas peec skaistuma, naudas un ideaaliem, un ja tev shis bullshit i vienaldziigs, tad tu neesi nekas, un es jau shobriid esu kaa tukshums, tad kaada shkjirba vai es existeeju kaa tuksha vieta, vai manis vispaar nav?
..I made a girl who hated the world, and this girl was me.
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Jun. 4th, 2005 @ 11:43 pm :>
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Creed - My Sacrifice

heh..ak tu nezheliigais likteni..tef apnika mani vajaat? vai arii atradi kaadu citu ko apcelt? :P labi, nekacinaashu tefi, jo veel gribu paaris dienas gozeeties te, sauliitee, jo man ljoti patiik..=)))
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Jun. 3rd, 2005 @ 03:25 pm *********
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Yellowcard - Way Away

Yeeeeeeeeeeah =))) tunelja galaa redzu gaismu, kas ved taalu prom no shejienes =))) mazliet maac bailes - tik taalu, nezinaamaa virzienaa `n` alone, bet... that`s ok, because I`ll be so far away =))))))
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Jun. 1st, 2005 @ 01:20 pm *********
Current Music: Natasha Bedingfield - I Bruise Easily

Dziive galu galaa ir viens liels zaudeejums - tu zaudee draugu, miilestiibu, nevainiibu, jauniibu, veseliibu, pat zobus un beigu beigaas savu kjermeni jebshu sevi. Bet kpc man liekas, ka visu ko vareeju jau esu zaudeejusi, maybe zobus veel nee..veel viens pazaudeets cilveeks, again. Maybe man vinju nemaz nevajadzeeja, vismaz es domaaju, ka nevajag, bet tagad, kad viss ir cauri, ir tik liels tukshums, kuru nevar aizpildiit. Taac tukshums, trulums un saapes jau kuro dienu, bet es pati taa gribeeju, es pati..un tu? tu vienkaarshi padevies
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May. 29th, 2005 @ 11:29 pm Wasted Years
Current Mood: wasted :/
Current Music: Cold - Wasted Years

There's a game life plays
makes you think you're everything they ever said you were
Like to take some time
Clear away everything I've planned

Was it life I've betrayed
for the shape that I'm in
It's not hard to fail
it's not easy to win
did I drink too much
could I dissapear
and there's nothing that's left but wasted tears

There's nothing left but wasted years

If I could change my life
Be a simple kind of man try to do the best I can
if I could take the sides
I'd derail every path I could
I'm about to die
won't you clear away from me give me strength to fly away

There's nothing left but wasted years
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May. 23rd, 2005 @ 01:55 am *********
veel palicis viens malks un mana pudele buus tuksh :/ vismaz kkaadas sajuutas - veederaa juutama alko iedarbiiba un galvaa ar - laikam shodien pa maz esu eeduse. Yeah, alko i slikc, bet kaa savaadaak lai nobeidz sho "ideaalo" dienu? Njaa..tagad es zinaashu zaljo birzi - gan beernudaarzu, gan slimniicas raj., gan to sadodiito ziili..jauki ne? I hate u!!!! Sen nebija seedeets uz kaapneem pie dziivoklja durviim, jo man protams atsleegas bija palikushas pufaikaa..bet shodien shaadu baudu vareeju izbaudiit.. just perfect day =D psc, arii pudel tuksh..nu neko
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May. 16th, 2005 @ 12:11 pm *********
Sajuuta taada kaa maldoties pa tumsu. Tu saredzi cilveeka veidolu, bet neredzi vinju pashu. Tu dzirdi ko vinjsh runaa un tu vinju sajuuti caur vaardiem, domaam un dziives attiexmes, bet tad iespiid gaismas stars un tu saredzi vinja patieso es.(?) Vai maz ir iespeejams tik ljoti kljuudiities cilveeka noveerteejumaa? Liidz shim taa naf bijis, bet visam pienaak pirmaa reize. Bet shoreiz te naf vainiigs neviens iznjemot mani, jo es biju taa, kas uztveera tumsaa vinja vaardus un domas, es biju taa, kas neljaava iespiideet gaismas staram, un nu es esmu taa, kam naak smiekli par visu, jo kaarteejo reizi muljkjos esmu atstaata es..maybe taa ir mana iistaa vieta? vienkaarshi beidzot tas jaapienjem un jaaizniicina peedeejie pretoshanaas asni, jo no naatru staadiem rozes neizaugs.
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May. 12th, 2005 @ 01:38 pm *********
Current Mood: fucked off
Current Music: rokopera "Kaupeen, mans miiljais" - Dzejnieka dziesma

Es neesmu dubljus bridis, es pats bijis dublji, ko brien..
I`m just so fucked off..
..un pierunaat dievu, lai njem par engheli mani..
bet kpc shis Kaads nenjem mani pie sevis, bet liek sheit mociities? Vienk atljautu man aiziet it kaa manis nemaz nebuutu bijis..buutu labaak - gan man, gan paareejiem..
..un pierunaat dievu, lai njem par engheli mani..
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May. 6th, 2005 @ 11:18 pm again..
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Marilyn Manson - This Is The New Shit

Un taa vienmeer..kpc citiem tas ir tik vienkaarshi, bet man nekad? Visaadi paarpratumi, vilshanaas, sabrukushu sapnju etc..Kpc ir tik gruuti atrast sev otru cilveeku? Vienmeer viss saiet taa kaa nevaidzeetu. Bet maybe es esmu taa, kas negrib nevienu pienjemt? Vasaraa vinjsh veeleejaas buut maneejais, bet es nee..un kad beidzot sapratu, ka tomeer veelos bija jau par veelu. Un tagad atkal.. kad beidzot ir kaads, kursh sanjemtu manu roku saveejaa, man nav labi.. ko tad es iisti gaidu? Princi baltaa zirgaa??
- Psc..Sandy..ko tu iisti gribi??
- Es gribu kaadu cilveeku sev blakus, gribu buut kaadam vajadziiga..
- He he, meiten..tu pate iisti nez ko veelies..jebshu tev veel viss priekshaa..
-Noteikti..pss..
bet maybe es negribu ziedot savu briiviibu? Vai tad taa buushu es, kura vairs neskums peec kkaa nepiepildiita? Vai tad taa buushu es, kuraa skumjas vairs nebuus ne kripatinjas? Ielaizhot kaadu sev tik tuvu klaat es zaudeeshu daljinju no sevis.. un sho daljinju es veelos atdot tam par kuru esmu pilniigi paarliecinaata..bet taada veel nav bijis..
..where the hell are you?? why can`t I find u? :/
un ko man tagad dariit ar vinju? Es negribu buut ljauna, jo vinjsh ir jauks cilveeks, bet..ne maneejais..es labi zinu kaa ir tad, kad tevi saapina..un es noteikti taa ne pret vienu neiztureeshos, nekad. Kaut vai man naaxies melot es izdomaashu kko, bet es nebuushu ljauna maita..nebuushu..
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Apr. 30th, 2005 @ 12:02 am Vinjsh piezvaniija..
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Seether feat. Amy Lee - Broken

Telefona zvans..baac..neviens nevar iedomaaties, ka 21os vakaraa es maybe veel gulju? Akal nepaziistams nr..nu neko - celjam augshaa:
- chav!
- chav!
- zini kas zvana?
- nee..
- te Gatis.
- aaa...chav! =))
- negribi iznaakt pastaigaaties?
- es taga nevaru..etc
Nu baac..tikko atmodies cilveeks tak nevar normaali padomaat..Nav briinums, ka tai briidii man svariigaaks bij mans sunjuks, kursh jaaizved pastaigaaties, nevis vinjsh..Jee..un tagad ir kaarteejais 5dienas vakars un es seezhu maajaas, tikai tpc, ka tai briidii man svariigaaks bija man suns..baac..:// Bet vinjsh piezvaniija..vinjsh - piezvaniija..
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Apr. 27th, 2005 @ 03:36 pm =)
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Def Leppard - Animal

Kaadam nevaig pozitiivu emociju laadinju? Es varu piedaavaat! Jo pashreiz man to ir tik daudz..Pietiks visiem! Reizeem laimei vaig tik maz.. vienkaarshi smaids nepazuud no manas sejas visu dienu =) Ieguuta 1.maa vieta rezenciju konkursaa skolaa..jau 2.gadu peec kaartas, laikam jau jauki, tik nedaudz beediigi, ka neredzu sevi shajaa jomaa taalaak..bet ko- dziivosim shim mirklim, shai dienai! =) Un veel 5dienas gaidaas..=)) Ne jau katru dienu pie manis ciemos brauc jauks puisis =] un ne jau katra 5diena man i pusbriiva..Hehe..Es tak saprotu, ka laimes izjuuta ir paarejosha, bet.. pietiek runaat, labaak vienkaarshi uzsmaidiit! Yeah =))
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Apr. 25th, 2005 @ 11:50 am Pilnmeeness
Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: Crossfade - So Far Away

Nu kaa vienaa dienaa var tik ljoti viss saiet griezi? Re, ka var. Ne jau tur kkaads pilnmeeness vainiigs, maybe vienk neveixmiiga diena. Ir gruuti atrast cilveekus ar kuriem domas kaut cik sakriit, bet viegli ir tos pazaudeet.. I don`t understand u boy :P Un tad veel vinjsh..fck, tas cilveeks vairs man neko nenoziimee, bet vinjam akal kko vaidzeeja no manis..That all is the past..don`t seek me anymore,plz..Amizanti ir pus11tos vakaraa iet pastaigaaties gar juuras krastu, it sevishkji, ka taa ir 7diena =) Tas pilnais meeness, zvaigznes un nebeidzamaa juura. Gribaas tajaa iebrist un brist, brist..bez meerkja.. Ja taa padomaa cik muusu pilseetelee ir iedziivotaaju, bet pa visu juurmalu biju es viena, so beautiful =) Aizgaaju uz juurmalu padomaat, bet tas skaistums apkaart atnjeema man domas un tas tieshaam bija arii tas, kas man vaidziigs.. Man nevarot uzticeeties..lai kursh to buutu teicis.. es tef esmu uzticeejusi daudz ko taadu, kas man bijis svariigs, a tu taa.. tu vienkaarshi mani nepaziisti like I don`t know u :P whatever, chats ir viens bullshit, diez cik dienas shoreiz notureeshos? I`m just tired of that..
I`ve been changing but u never see me, know I`m blaming u for everything
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Apr. 16th, 2005 @ 12:09 pm Psc
Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: Seether - Fuck It

Tie sapnji mani vajaa..maybe labaak vispaar neguleet? Un pats stulbaakais ir tas, ka uzmozhoties es 95% atceros, ko esmu sapnjojusi un prieku jau man tas nesagaadaa.. peleeks riits.. 6diena, bet nekas nav mainiijies - diena peec dienas, tikpat peleekas un vienmuljas kaa vienmeer, pat miegs, kuraa mekleeju patveerumu man atgaadina par pagaatnes kljuudaam.. kur tad man iet? kur palikt? kur rast patveerumu? Kraasoju tumshas acis shoriit - melnais acu ziimulis, tumshi peleekaas eenas, melnaa acu tusha - taa es shoriit juutos.. tik viens nosaciijums - nekaadu asaru, jo man atkal ir jaabuut stiprai, vienkaarshi jaabuut.
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Apr. 14th, 2005 @ 08:33 pm *********
Current Music: Yellowcard - Way Away

Debesiis var tikt gandriiz vai jebkursh, bet tie, kas dziivo uz zemes ir ciiniitaaji..
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Apr. 12th, 2005 @ 12:09 am Kaarteejaa 1diena
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Guano Apes - Living In A Lie

1dienas un 2dienas ir nedeeljas gruutaakaas dienas. Kad taas i pagaajushas shkjiet, ka nedeeljas beigas jau klaat. Visu 1dienas peecpusdienu tik maacies un maacies un tik un taa neizmaaciisies visu..grr..ieniistu 2dienas :/ Vieniigais pluss shodien, ka vecaaki nav maajaas..taada kaa briiviibas sajuuta. Kaa es gribeetu savu dziivokliiti..ehh..bet veel biku jaapagaida. Veel jaapabeidz taa stulbaa skola, kuru peedeejaa laikaa sanaak taa biezhaak noguleet u.t.t., laikam tpc, ka neredzu tai jeegu. Kas to buutu domaajis, ka pienaax diena, kad sapratiishu, ka mana izveeleetaa profesija galiigi naf tas ko gribu. Neredzu jeegu taam maaciibaam, tik un taa es pa sho liiniju neieshu. Taa skola vienu vieniigu veseliibu maitaa un vis! Nekas, veel 2 meeneshi, tad sesija un paartraukums pirms finisha. Jaaiztur ir - kur citur likshos. Vieniigais meerkjis, kas mani tur ir pa vasaru tikt uz Angliju - vienk kkur prom no visiem, no stulbaas lv un no visaam atminjaam u.t.t. Kaut nu izdotos!=| Hmm..vai jeega iet guleet? Vakar aizmigu tik uz 4iem..un ja 8njos jaaceljas..bet ko padariisi, ka nevar aizmigt? Pierasts jau iet guleet peec 2viem..taac nu ir tas mans dziives ritms, tik kkaa nesakriit ar ikdienu - neatliek laika izguleeties :/
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