THE BLOG - alter or die

it is deep night outside my lidless windows. yeah, my windows have no curtains. it is troublesome. and I feel heavy. real heavy. sort of huge, like if I could fill any space with myself. I am filling this room now and there is no space left for anything else. and I walk the streets every day and I feel like if some invisible weight is attached to me. like if I was light and ethereal in the core, but this solid body dragging me to the ground and almost growing roots in the pavement.

this place sucks. too much emotions. too much humanism. too much fears. I wish to alter my consciousness, so that I should never think of anything again.