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Augusts 9., 2004

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17:03 Kakls vēljoprojām sāp, galva vēljoprojām kā spainis, bet vakar vēlu vakarā vairs nespēju nosēdēt mājās, tai karstumā, bezjēgā pie datora, un galvenais - gribējās pabūt pilnīgi vienai. Aizmaucu uz Jūrmalu..... Izstaigājos, izvazājos, un tikpat mierīgi aizbraucu mājās..... Pašā vakarā iegāju pie Indras, jo tomēr sagribējās parunāties, paraudāt uz pleca....... Neizpalika kopīgo bērnības atmiņu atcerēšanās un pasmiešanās, kā jau tas normāli notiek, bet vispār mums bij nopietna saruna. Izkratīju sirdi Indrukam par savu pēdējā laika sāpi, kas mani kuro nedēļu nomoka, un man bija nepieciešams draudzenes padoms, un nevis vienkārši draudzenes, bet Indras. Pēc tās sarunas man bij viela pārdomām. Indra teica, ka es esot pārāk mīļa; tādā nozīmē, kā ūdens, kas nepretojas, kas vienkārši plūst visam pāri, kas piekļaujas, utml. Es pārāk daudz piedodot visu citiem cilvēkiem. Tā tas ir viņasprāt. Njā.... Man arī agrāk cilvēki ir teikuši kaut ko līdzīgu, tipa, es esot pārāk laba. Pārāk uzticos, pārāk paļaujos, pārāk pielāgojos.... Vienvārdsakot, man tas laikam jāsaprot tā: pārāk ļauju sevi čakarēt, un pati esu pie tā vainīga. Prikols tāds, ka man pašai tā neliekas, ka es tāda esmu, jo es taču piedomāju pie tā, ko saku un ko daru, vismaz cenšos. Jāņem jau vērā apkārtējo viedoklis, bet, ja es tagad visam piekritīšu, ko par mani saka, tad ar savu šo piekrišanu tiešām apstiprināšu viņu viedokli!! Indra teica, ka man vajagot būt nedaudz spītīgākai, kaprīzākai, nepakļāvīgākai (hih, nu nepakļāvīga es gan esmu vairāk nekā vajag, to visskaudrāk izjūt mana ģimene mājās un skolotāji skolā). Gala beigās, man vienalga nav skaidrs, kas man jādara.... Kas man sevī jāmaina, jāpapildina, lai beidzot nāktu kāda skaidrība, sirdsmiers, un katrā nepiemērotā brīdī nerastos bremzītes - kompleksiņi....... :/ Vispār, jūtos gandrīz kā Britnija Spīrsa: man ir būtība viss, kas vajadzīgs - esmu jauna, forša, vesela, varētu kā sausiņš dzīvot no tā, kas man ir, bet tomēr - brīžiem ļoti noderīga būtu psihologa palīdzība, jo es tomēr mēdzu samežģīties un apmaldīties pati savās domiņās, lai gan ārēji viss ir normāli, kārtībā..... Lūk, Spīrsai esot 2 personīgie psihologi, lai nabadzīte nesajūk prātā. Protams, nav ko salīdzināt Spīrsas dzīvesveidu un manējo, bet cilvēki tak esam. Un palīdzība var būt vajadzīga jebkuram. Un es atzīstu to, ka dažreiz, kad ir "par daudz", jūtu šādu vajadzību. Paskatoties atpakaļ uz savām pēdējā laika domām un pārdomām, jāsecina, ka laikam man uznācis sevis žēlošanas periods. Nemēdz tā bieži būt, bet nu ir. Tad ieslēdzas sevis saudzēšanas - pašaizsardzības režīms pret liekām rūpēm un uztraukumiem, pārņem vai nu pesimims, vai pilnīga vienaldzība, kā arī varu pēkšņi atmiņu un emociju uzplūdā kaut ielas vidū birdināt asaras. Āpāc pilnīgi, kāda es esmu.... :) Jātiek tam pāri.... Garastāvoklis:: content Mūzika: hmm, kas man tur skan.......? :P

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18:15 - Heh, ko es atradu: Michael Raine Maida called Raine, was born on February 18, 1970 in Weston, Ontario. Raine is best known for being the lead singer of the band Our Lady Peace. They currently have 5 CDs (most to least recent) Gravity, Spiritual Machines, Happiness... Is Not A Fish You Can Catch, Clumsy and Naveed. He mainly writes lyrics about love and problems in life. The main audience for Raine's music is teens but people of all ages like his songs. Raine began writing songs for Our Lady Peace in 1992. He went to St. Catherine's private school when he was young and then All Saints High School. He later went to Ridley college and then university of Toronto to study criminology but dropped out 2 1/2 credits short of graduation to be in the band Our Lady Peace. Raine is married to another musician Chantal Kraviazuk but they do not have any children. Raine's parents are divorced and he has a brother, 18 years younger named Adam. The most recently released of Raine's songs are Innocent and Somewhere Out There from Our Lady Peace's latest CD Gravity. Some of Raine's best songs are 4 AM, Somewhere Out There and Life. The group Our Lady Peace has received many awards for their songs. The thing that stands out the most in Raine's lyrics is how real the messages are. Every song that Raine writes relates to real situations and feelings that people have. The imagery in Raine's poetry is very well done. He describes things very well and really gives you a sense of what he is feeling or thinking. Raine's songs are very different from one another in sound but they all have a very similar feeling to them which makes Our Lady Peace different from other bands that just make all their songs sound the same. Raine's choice of words is very good. He makes most of his lyrics acceptable to all ages and the ones he doesn't he makes unclear but audible to a good listener. The topics of Raine's songs are very real and some people can relate to them which gives the listener a sense of connection with the song. Somewhere Out There Last time I talked to you, you were lonely and out of place. You were looking down on me, lost out in space. Laid underneath the stars, strung out and feeling brave. Watch the red orange glow, watch you float away. Down here in the atmosphere, garbage and city lights, you've gone to save your tired soul, you've gone to save our lives. I turned on the radio, to find you on satellite, I'm waiting for the sky to fall, I'm waiting for a sign. All we are is all so far. You're falling back to me, the star that I can see. I know you're out there, somewhere out there. You're falling out of reach, defying gravity, I know you're out there, somewhere out there. Hope you remember me, when you're homesick and need a change. I miss your purple hair, I miss the way you taste. I know you'll come back someday, on a bed of nails I'll wait. I'm praying that you don't burn out, or fade away. All we are is all so far You're falling back to me, the star that I can see. I know you're out there, somewhere out there. You're falling out of reach, defying gravity, I know you're out there, somewhere out there. You're falling back to me, the star that I can't see. I know you're out there, oh. You're falling out of reach, defying gravity.... I know you're out there, somewhere out there. You're falling back to me, the star that I can see. I know you're out there, somewhere out there. You're falling out of reach, defying gravity, I know you're out there, somewhere out there. You're falling back to me. Well I know, I know. You're falling out of reach. I know... The song Somewhere Out There is a very good example of Raine's work. The song is caught somewhere between being slow and upbeat giving it a very calming effect while still being a bit fast and loud at some parts. The song is full of figurative language especially metaphors, the most common one in the chorus comparing someone with a star. The song also gives some imagery, mostly having to do with sight. The topic of the song is love. In the song he loves the person that is going or gone away and he is waiting for them to come back. It is a very moving song with a lot of emotion. I chose this song as a representation of Raine's best work because it is very musically and artistically good, plus it is one of his most recent. /Ian Galbraith/ Nu kolosāli uzrakstīts! Sevišķi pēdējā rindkopa, nu pilnīgi manas domas! Garastāvoklis:: excited

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