What's the market price for crazy cat ladies these days... I sometimes wonder.

I miss you sweet pea. That's the most honest and kind thing I can say to you. There are a lot of "but" but it all boils down to the fact that I really miss you. I've a lot of questions that quickly would turn into accusations being screamed out, teary and snotty mess. So I'm keeping it in. Sucking it up, so to speak. Hours of wallowing in self pitty. Questioning what could I have done better. Acceptance is yet to come. Oh my! It's been too long and I'm not sure i can be my sane self again.