Zilzaļā Stirna

Overdoing on cheap beer = Giger-inspired hangover. Still hurts. Hatehatehatelight.
Btw if i didn't overdo it would not be hurting at all, so no resolutions to quit on it completely.

On another note, time has come for a really unpleasant but necessary self-enhancement programme. Yuck exercise. Yuck dieting. Yuck training. Yuck maintenance. Hate it all, with a passion.

Also i will sit down and write 'I will never let anyone see me in a vulnerable state' x1K

Fn larvae. Had happily forgotten the failcyclopedia of them, yesterday accidentally reminded myself of one, and feeling teary, redundant and powerless now. Yay when a district elder is a delusional drunk with no life.

ETA: aizmirsu pieminēt sesiju, lol - tā kā pārstāsts: ir traki, kompanjons/e sab tualetē iedūrās ar kaut ko OTT, bet es, UV, nevaru neko darīt. Varu vienīgi izrādīt attieksmi. Fn eksistenciālisms. Kas atgādina - kad atbraukšu atpakaļ uz Ekstropiju (lol uzrakstīju 'Entropiju' netīšām) - būs jāatrod kāda mēslaine kur parakāties, pie šādiem apgriezieniem crashing my ride ir laika jautājums.

Paldies minddll par šo:



Un savukārt no manis un par mani un manu pašreizējo mindspace, īsumā:



Un ja jau vaļeņķinkas puksts - ja jau tad jau, uzliekam arī mūziku. Un laikam pirmā reize dzīvē kad man gribētos nebūtisku bet neiedomājami zaimojošu (no mana kulturālā background - tā kas rīmējas ar ingveralu...vai alu vispār - viedokļa) modifikāciju manam mīļākajam video.

Citiem vārdiem izveda puritāņu mentalitāte un vēlme redzēt visu kā adikciju - šai sakarā ir šāds lūk viedoklis (tulkot slinkums)

there's something i have to tell you. See - you wear clothing pretty much all the time, obsess over it, you often can be observed giggling and prattling about things that would make no sense to a person not wearing clothing. A considerable share of your income goes to buying more and more clothing, the pleasure gained from new clothing is subject to the rule of rapidly diminishing returns (the wardrobe's full but i have nothing to wear, sounds familiar?) and in honesty, most of the time you don't wear clothing for enjoyment but for maintenance. You think about clothing, about where to acquire clothing and how it would be to have this or that piece of clothing. Some of you even go to the lengths of making substandard clothing with no quality assurances whatsoever at home. But the most telltale sign of what's going on is the instant psychological discomfort at a thought of a life without clothing. Additionally, as a simple and easily repeatable experiment shows, forcibly taking clothing away from a test subject results in all the classical signs of withdrawal - heightened stress levels, rising blood pressure, in some cases - extreme hot or cold sensations, impairment of social functioning, inability to lead a reasoned discussion, loss of control over emotions, unprovoked aggression and a desire to acquire clothing by any means at hand - followed by a deep depression and disinterest in basic everyday activities like grocery shopping or even as little as going for a 10 minute walk in case the desire is not immediately fulfilled. A severe absence of empathy, caring and human consideration can be observed in clothing-deprived test subjects - all of them neglected to walk their pets or take their children to school. The listed facts stand true of 99.8% of all research subjects with not a single significant exception.

It's not my place to teach you to live, but i'd like you to consider your attitude towards clothing. Because i care.

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Citādi esmu bezmaz vai bezgalīgi laimīga :) nejautājiet man kāpēc jo paskaidrot nevaru un negribu. Kas zin - piedot un aizvērties. C'mon ja 20 gadu emocionālā attīstība ir panākta kādos 8 - tas ka man emocionāli ir jau 20 ir sasniegums nevis trūkums.
Un jā ja es atcerētos kā ir lietot pildspalvu un šis blogs būtu dienasgrāmata es droši vien zīmētu sezonālo ornamentiku uz viņa malām :)

Message: Es esmu pāri emocionālajai bedrei, beidzot!!!!! :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BWdkozMxkEc

Nevarēšu vēl kādu mēnesi vairāk par ēdienu rakstīt (varbūt divreiz) jo esmu pat sadabūjusi motivāciju diētai.