silvija - Komentāri

No hard feelings - actually my relationship - well feelings - towards Latvia and Latvians isn't easy for me to articulate - I have a kind of self-induced 'thickness of head' whenever I try to clarify even a part or nuance of it. Partly down to my defensive character, which has grown to also be defensive of this place (you should hear me stick it to the expats) - this leads me to moments of despair - the same kind of despair I have for myself - I mean it's difficult to keep this kind of defence up as the shots keep raining in.

At this point I wanted to write the following:

'So in short, sometimes I feel like I simply hate myself'

But it's not true - at least I don't think so, and the conclusion is once again unsustainable.