"I'm just a dumb kid. I dress up like an adult and skip school every once in a while to see what being an adult is like. Okay? I just want to know if growing up is worth it. That's all. And so I follow the most miserable-looking adult to work, because I just know that's going to be me someday - the most miserable adult on the train. I need to know if I can take it."
She said, "Take what?"
I said, "Being a miserable adult."

Matthew Quick, 2013, Forgive Me, Leonard Peacock