when out of blue something beautiful and probably significant happens

me: wow - yes - awesome - let's - true - amazing - mystical - life - blessed be - magic - human - yes to everything - devote - perfect - utter - magnet - love - sheer - now - power - glory
also me: ugh
me also: perfect stoic, transcend, everything is one, maya, samsara, samadhi, i am whole, nothing is real everything is real, i knew before, time does not exist, neither-nor, [silence]