nu jaa that is what i understand. bet i'm different, jo i'm not suppressing anything, manii nav nekaadas ciinjas. man vienkaarshi ir taa, ka sometimes i feel so happy, sometimes i feel so sad, un katru reizi, kad i feel happy, something sad happens. and when it happens i am not fighting it, i just let it happen and embrace it. but then it makes me even sadder. i don't experience emotions like anger, or fear or anxiety anymore, all i feel is sadness and apathy when something happens that triggers me. but usually it doesn't last too long, and then in no time i am happy again. but then out of nowhere again.. something sad, and i am not suppressing it, i just allow it.