19 September 2016 @ 08:21 am
mees ar kosmosu divataa  
tu sajuuties vientuliigs tad, kad tavupraat pat vistuvaakie cilveeki nespeej spriest logjiski un racionaali. vieniigais, kas cilveekiem liek justies nevientulji ir kopeeja racionalitaates sajuuta, kas kaa stiiga stiepjas no praata uz praatu. kad balanss pazuud, stiiga paartruukst, tu atkal esi viens pats visaa pasaulee, un pat vistuvaakie cilveeki kljuust par kaarteejiem sveshiniekiem, kuri tev ir miilji, bet kuri vairs nav 'taveejie'

tad vajag fiksi paarorganizeeties, speeji ieelpot dzestro vientuliibas gaisu, ieviistiit sevi siltaa pashpietiekamiibas villainee un raitaa solii doties taalaak naakotnee vienam pasham kaa kundzinjam (paari koku lapaam nobirusham trotuaarim)
 
 
19 September 2016 @ 04:35 pm
 
skaudraas, vaardos nenotveramaas juutas
 
1. Kudoclasm: when lifelong dreams are brought down to earth 

2. Opia: the intensity of looking someone in the eye 

3. Lachesism: a longing for the clarity of disaster.  "The apocalypse is one of the oldest fantasies we have, but it’s not about skipping to the end of the story. It's a longing for revelation, a revealing of what we already know, but cannot see: that none of this is guaranteed. and there’s no such thing as “ordinary life” 

4. Dès vu: the awareness that the experience you’re in now will become a memory

5. Koinophobia: the fear that you’ve lived an ordinary life

6. Fata organa: a flash of real emotion glimpsed in someone sitting across the room, idly locked in the middle of some group conversation, their eyes glinting with vulnerability or quiet anticipation or cosmic boredom — as if you could see backstage through a gap in the curtains

7. Mimeomia: the frustration of knowing how easily you fit into a stereotype

8. Vemödalen: the frustration of photographing something amazing when thousands of identical photos already exist, which can turn a unique subject into something hollow and pulpy and cheap, like a mass-produced piece of furniture you happen to have assembled yourself