31 March 2016 @ 11:32 pm
going where the cold wind blows  
mees shovakar ar sofiju bijaam green note kamdenaa skatiities roo panes un i don't know where to shove my feels

green note ir taada ljoti maziitinja venue pashaa kamdenas centraa, kas pieder laikam kaut kaadiem diviem dzhekiem, vienam no vinjiem ir gari melni mati, kepons un vinjsh izskataas peec kaut kaada meta dilana. lai arii es domaaju, ka redzeeshu tikai roo panes, tur veel pirms vinja dazhas dziesmas speeleeja meitene, kas izskatiijaas peec jauninjas shineidas okonoras un kas iepaziistinaaja ar savaam dziesmaam ar taadiem komentaariem kaa 'this i wrote when i was very hungover', 'this one is about a guy i really liked who i think only wanted to sleep with me, it's called "glass eyes"'. peec tam bija vislieliskaakais, kas izraisiija manas sirds sadegshanu neparasti un totaalu naavi..

kad biju februaarii viena aizgaajusi uz cadogan hall noskatiities ieprieksh roo panes, ar vinjiem speeleeja veel kaut kaadi chalji, kur viens no vinjiem izskatiijaas peec perfekta debesu engjelja. peec koncerta es izstalkoju visus iespeejamos portaalus un noskaidroju, ka to dzheku sauc josh flowers un ka vinjam pieder grupa josh flowers and the wild. atlikushaas nedeeljas liidz shodienai es vairaakas reizes viilos, jo palaidu galaam vinju koncertus brixtonaa un barfly, un kaada vispaar dziivei jeega ja nevar iet uz koncertiem skatiities uz zeeniem kas izskataas peec debesiim un dzied ar ciet aciim. bet shovakar! vinji tur bija, un tajaa vietaa lai speeleetu kopaa ar roo, vinjiem papildus bija pashiem sets peec shineidas okonoras. mums ar sofiju iegadiijaas seedeet pie pashas skatuves, mind, tas venue bija kaa mana dziivojamaa istaba, varbuut divu metru attaalumaa no muuzikjiem. taa nu es tur seedeeju ar savu pale vegan 7% ale un sviidu deelj sirds, un shaudiiju acis no smukaa zeena gjitaaras uz smukaa zeena luupaam un tad izdomaaju ka fuck it - the power of now, i don't exist as a separate self anyhow, so no stress. smukais josh flowers nospeeleeja kaadas 6 kriptiskas dziesmas, mana miiljaakaa saucaas 'vaarnu zeens', kameer roo panes seedeeja blakus sofijai buzhinot sev matus. tad vinjsh pats saaka speeleet, un all the fuss is justified, jo vinjam noteikti ir taa captivating, seeing is believing muuzikju kvalitaate, vinjsh dzied taa it kaa vinjam nebuutu nekas ko sleept. beigaas vinjsh nospeeleeja 'pale blue eyes' kaveru, kas man shkjita kriptiski, jo no riita 6:51 peerkot kafiju victoria station pretaa skaneeja taa pati dziesma un man taa vienmeer bijusi tuva dveeselei.

peec koncera es nokljuvu metro un paarspiileeti skalji austinjaas klausiijos dzhefu bakliju kameer vagonaa speeleeja kaut kaadi chigaani. uz mirkli aizveeru acis un paarnjeema taa sajuuta, kad esi mazliet iedzeeris un aizver acis un shkjiet, ka tu izshkjiisti un uzvirpuljo gaisaa un tad atkal noseedies atpakalj kjermenii. vispaar es nebiju dzeerusi alkoholu 20 dienas un domaaju ka vairs nedzershu, jo jeezus, bet esmu noveerojusi, ka tad kad mirst smadzenju shuunas atraisaas sirds. es visu laiku staigaaju ar krampjainu sirdi un izliekos par super turbo virtue kakjeenu ceriibaa uz kaut kaadu deservedness bet tas viss ir in vain shkjiet

man peec 5 stndaam atkal jaaceljas dziivei, un visam, bet es ceru peec iespeejas ilgaak notureeties uz shiis sajuutas, ka what a time to be alive, waht a success in terms of emotional gradations, in terms of seeing beautiful boys that look like heaven playing music singing with eyes closed
 
 
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