14 August 2015 @ 05:54 pm
free falling  
"i was so overwhelmed that everything was myself, i looked at these beautiful mountains and they were not outside me, so the whole shift in perspective was very overwhelming. because suddenly consciousness became your reference point, not you, but consciousness itself - to give it some words.. that became the reference point so you were everywhere but nowhere in particular"

man vaards vaardaa kaa shim kungam notika divas atsevishkjas reizes aptuveni pirms paaris meeneshiem atrodoties metro. vienreiz seezhot victoria line uz centru, otrreiz staavot victoria station gaidot victoria line uz maajaam. taa bija vislieliskaakaa sajuuta pasaulee, jo es jutos taa it kaa manas smadzenes atrastos briivajaa kritienaa liidz nejaushi iekristu random wormhole un izzustu, un tad palika vienkaarshi bezpersoniska vismieriigaakaa, klusaakaa buushana kas ietver visu, es klusi vienakarshi biju viss ko redzu apkaart, taa it kaa es shaadi 'viss' buutu bijusi neaprakstaami sen un netaisiitos beigt buut 'viss' veel ljoti ilgu laiku. taapeec ne par ko nav jaauztraucas un taapeec ir nulle emociju! taa it kaa viss ir atbildeets ar buushanu 'visam'. bet peec dazhiem mirkljiem, manas smadzenes atkal iekrita man galvaskausaa kaa smaga, emocijaam pesuukusies, karsta kljocka